Ongoing dialogue and reflections
Shirley spoke at length about life in Guyana, coping with diabetes, work and the service received from the GP. She is an articulate middle class woman with two adult children, a son living with her and a daughter with her own flat. Shirley was head of department at a local school before she retired. During her interview she disclosed a significant amount of personal information regarding the relationship with the husband she divorced.
When I explained about involvement in the PAR group, Shirley expressed reluctance because she had many hospital appointments and helped with another group, genuinely feeling she could not contribute much. I left it as an option and explained the transcript will arrive by post for her comments. We agreed for me to contact her in a few days.
During a long telephone conversation, she felt her transcript was a true record of the interview. I followed up with her storyline on the phone in which she showed strengths in managing her condition ensuring regular check-ups at the GP and accepted her responsibility to get them. Before diagnosis her eating was erratic but has a regular diet now. Shirley acquired a lot of knowledge about her condition through literature. Religion and prayer plays a significant role in her life. Exercise has been an issue due to her sciatica but she managed to walk regularly as a result of a physiotherapy session.
Shirley decided she no longer wanted further telephone contact but gave permission for her interview to be used in the inquiry.
Reflection
I felt more confident in this interview with an assertive lady leading a busy life. Shirley responded warmly sharing a lot of personal information. I asked more exploratory questions which elicited more expansive answers. It was clear she was managing her diabetes. When telling her about the PAR group she became hesitant and responded saying “she is busy and had many hospital appointments”. I did not put any pressure on her respecting her right to refuse and brought the meeting to a close by encouraging her to ask any further questions.
Rather than spending time encouraging Shirley to attend the group, I maintained contact until it was clear she was not interested and decided to walk away. It was a reminder that not everyone is interested in joining certain groups even with the same cultural background. I have had to reassess assumptions made during this inquiry but my experience with Jane prepared me to walk away sooner.
Agnes’s storyline
About three years ago I was diagnosed with diabetes. I noticed that I had a problem when I got up in the morning. I would feel dizzy and have blurred vision so I decided to make an appointment with the GP. I then had a fasting blood sugar test and the result came back that I was 7.9 which is .9 over the required level. I was prescribed Metformin and asked to attend diabetic classes. A dietician ran these classes for a number of individuals with Type 2 Diabetes and we were introduced to certain diets and were told about the amount of food we should eat, stay away from certain juices and eat far less carbohydrates but more greens. We were informed that we could eat sweets in small quantities but that we needed to take regular exercise every day like walking, and that type of thing. They gave me some leaflets and little books to read. These were like case studies that I read immediately when they gave them to me but I haven’t read them recently.
I have been going regularly to the clinic, where they test my blood sugar to see if the level has increased. At the GP surgery I have had a DECS which is the test for the diabetes eye and they said that it is normal. The diabetes has not affected my sight. I am satisfied with the help that I receive because they monitor my weight and everything else to make sure that I am eating the right type of food. My diet varies. I eat lettuce, broccoli, wholemeal bread and fish. I now eat less fried fish, rotis, oily food and brown rice. I have also started eating smaller quantities and have lost weight as well. I manage my diabetes carefully and make sure that it is controlled. Consequently I don’t have the dizziness as before, and I’m less lethargic.
Actually I am one of those individuals that is scared of blood so I don’t like testing my blood glucose levels. My son is a Type 1Diabetic. He got it very young and it was suggested that stress probably caused his condition because he was going to university and was finishing off his Masters and thesis. He helps me with the monitoring of my diabetes because he uses a monitor. He does it for me. I actually monitor my levels twice a week. The last test was 8. It can go down to 6 but then it was 7. It is now 8 again maybe. In February, my identical twin sister was diagnosed as a diabetic. She lives in America. She couldn’t understand how I was diagnosed, and my niece who’s a nurse says ‘oh it’s in Guyana; it’s higher than over here and perhaps they hadn’t checked me properly’. I explained to my sister that as we are identical twins if I have it she too would be diagnosed with Type 2. My husband who was overweight also had Type 2. It was a shock to know that all three of us got it.
I must tell you about a lady who said when she was diagnosed, she cried. I said to her ‘look I was shocked too’ because I was caring for my husband and son and did not realise I was diabetic too. Therefore after I got it I decided that I had to look after myself. I have to be contented to live with it and just use the medication and see how long my life will be prolonged.
My husband and son used herbal remedies to treat their diabetes. They brought some bitter sticks from Guyana and would use it now and again. Normally I wouldn’t use anything more than medication and water. In Guyana they sell a bark and a lot of people use it secretly. Another friend of mine advised me to use boiled cinnamon water which is very helpful. I tried the cinnamon water and that week the glucose level went down, but sometimes I don’t even remember that I must drink it. My pastor advised me to drink okra juice but I used it once. I didn’t continue, but another person from my Church told me it helped him. I have diabetes so there’s nothing that I can do. If I knew it can be cured, amen but that’s what I’m saying I have got to live with it. I really don’t pay much attention to diabetes because I take life every day as it comes. If it can’t be cured, I have to stick to my diet.
The first time I heard about hypoglycaemic coma was when my son had one and I think my husband, because I remember I was trying to I give him a bath and noticed that he had collapsed so I sent for the ambulance and they gave him some glucose but still took him to hospital. He was admitted for the day and then we brought him home that night when it increased to 8.
Today was one of the days that … I mustn’t say depressed but it was a day like today 2nd June I brought my husband from Guyana after he was mugged while on holiday so I had to go there to escort him back to England because he had a stroke. It all came back to me today and I could see myself taking him in the ambulance to hospital. He recovered from the stroke but started to get mild seizures. He was in hospital on the Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and on the Friday they called me and informed me that he was dying. He was in terrible state when I got there as he was gasping for breath. I gave him some water and he was suddenly revived. The nurse came in and said ‘Mrs’, I said’ yes, you’ve performed a miracle’. I said’ why’? The nurse said ‘your husband’s dying’ and I said ‘yes he just needed some water’ and I gave him some. He lived for a further two months after we brought him home. He just passed away.
We had a Coroner’s Inquest last month that was also pushing up my diabetes because you didn’t know what to expect. It felt like a depression. The coroner read out everything that happened and he said to me ’from the report that I have seen you have been caring for your husband throughout’ and I said ‘yes sir’. ‘I’ve seen that you cared your husband throughout his illness and you’ve done a good job’. I said’ thank you very much sir’.
The inquest brought some closure, but when I came home that afternoon after the hearing, I almost fainted, and I said ‘oh’ and my son said ‘mum you need to go and rest’. I came in and I went to bed and I don’t know what happened until the next day.
When managing my diabetes, I believe that the church helps me to relax and I always have faith that God will heal. I believe that it is God who is keeping me in good health because I’ve had so many traumas to go through. I think that God is around because I’ve seen it with my son and my husband who was ill for a long time. God has kept him going, so I said if it’s God’s will that he should go, amen.
Some days I look around and find that I am on my own. Although my husband was ill there was somebody to speak to but he is no longer here. My niece comes to stay with me and my son visits some nights or before he goes home from work but they are not here during the day so I’m left alone however I’m trying to cope. I have one grand-daughter but she doesn’t visit regularly.
I was admitted to hospital about three weeks ago. I heard them saying that I had a problem with my heart. Afterwards they checked it and discovered the blood wasn’t flowing to the main artery. I looked it up in the dictionary and found that it was angina. I also had a knee operation in November because I couldn’t walk properly. Every time I went anywhere it would just lock and I couldn’t move. Then I had my eyes lasered in October, and all this happened just one thing after the other so they had it on record.
I have glaucoma but no other illnesses. I go and get eye drops when I need them. I think the day you called I had a hospital appointment, because they did the lasers, but they said I need to change the spectacles but not until my vision worsen.
I was born in Georgetown but grew up in New Amsterdam and finished my schooling there. I returned to Georgetown where I worked at the GBS Radio Demerara radio station. Then I went back to New Amsterdam and worked with the New Amsterdam Town council for a number of years. I became a politician with (PNC) and worked with this political party for many years. I was offered a scholarship and studied in Cuba for two years. When I returned to Guyana I was seconded to work directly with the PNC.
I came to England in 1977 and have been here for 34 years. The reason for me coming to England was to join my husband whom I was married to for 34 years. He was looking for a wife and offered to marry me while I was working in Guyana. He said ‘lady I would like to marry you’. I said ‘me’. I said ‘look please leave me alone’. He said ‘yes lady I would like to marry you’. Two days later his niece brought a certificate and when I looked at it, it was a marriage licence. I agreed to marry him.
I used to work at the Housing Benefit office and worked there for almost 20 years. I retired nearly four years ago. I’m 68 - 69 this year. The job was a bit stressful but it was satisfying, because you were able to help people that were in need and that was the main thing. I loved the people I worked with and maybe they loved me too. Some of them they used to call me their mother. There were several nationalities working there. When I retired many people contributed to my leaving party. They still support me. One called me to find out what I was doing for the holidays. I say ‘I ain’t doing nothing, I just feel like resting’. You see although they were younger than me I respected them and they respected me. They are good friends, so I still keep in touch and visit them in Hackney. Two months ago they invited me to lunch. They even came to my husband’s funeral. When they heard he had died that afternoon the house was packed. I didn’t have the space to put them.
During the day I sometimes find work to do around the house. I clean and then wash my son’s clothes. I’m still mother washer. If I have got any minutes to look at I will read them or I’ll call up a friend and then I will arrange meetings. Sometimes I go out and find something to do. I don’t go to meetings as much as before because I have given up some of my positions. I just attend my board meetings and I go to Church regularly. I also visit friends for example the lady I told you that is very ill, I went to see her, spend some time with her and do her shopping if it is needed. I plant too. I always finding something to do, I say to myself that I might as well keep busy because my husband is not there for me to care for him and I have the time.
I don’t know now what is happening to diabetes in Guyana because they don’t have enough information. They are not educated enough, because I remember in those days when I lived there they use to call it sugar and they would say to you don’t eat this, don’t eat that and you say well okay.
There was a lady in my organisation from St Lucia from the Diabetes Society and Dr Adams plus some others formed a committee because they had the expertise. They frequently went to Guyana to take drugs for diabetes but they stopped going back and told us to stop contributing financially. Even with the help that they were getting from abroad, this has been hindered because people were stealing the drugs. Therefore the people from the committee have stopped going to Guyana. They used to have centres in New Amsterdam and in Georgetown Hospital where people could come and get free treatment but that has stopped now.
I would be interested in joining the group. The only thing I would like to ask you is ‘do any of the women complain that they have a problem with cramps’? This lady that I visit is always telling me about her feet and cramps. I told her that sometimes I get cramps too so I got heat treatment that I rub in at nights.
Ongoing dialogue and reflections
The day I arrived to interview Agnes, a pleasant, charismatic lady who received me warmly, she commented that it was the first anniversary of her husband’s death and was very tearful. She spoke at length about this as she missed him greatly. Her son has Type 1 and husband had Type 2 Diabetes. Agnes believed she should have noticed her symptoms so her diagnosis was a shock. Agnes said that she received good care from her GP clinic, the practitioners were attentive but she needs more information about managing diabetes. She has read about it and had an induction course. Agnes showed self-management strengths; eating a healthy diet, taking medication regularly, using herbs and contacting the diabetic specialist nurse with any problems. When I talked about the group Agnes was attracted to the idea of sharing information with like-minded women and believed she had much to contribute to the sessions.
She did not suggest any changes to her transcript. Due to her spending time abroad we had several telephone conversations rather than home visits. Agnes talked about life in Guyana working for Prime Minister Burnham during the late 1960s and 1970s which she thoroughly enjoyed before marriage and coming to England. She recalled positive experiences working with the council in London until retirement three years ago. She missed her colleagues who still visit her occasionally. Agnes is very involved with the London Guyanese community playing a key role in organising activities. Her health suffered since her husband died and she was admitted to hospital for an angiogram and heart related issues. She sustained a needle stick injury which would not heal so was referred to the physiotherapist for further treatment to encourage movement in the finger. Asthma too became a problem so she was prescribed an inhaler.
Agnes was away in Guyana and America for several months during the inquiry to arrange her husband’s affairs and visit her twin sister who also has diabetes. We communicated again on her return in February 2012. She had had frequent falls whilst abroad which her GP felt may be linked to a hearing problem affecting her balance. She said the diabetes was stable but the GP had increased her Metformin and advised the same diet.
During an in depth conversation a month later Agnes highlighted more physical problems. She was walking with a stick, has glaucoma in both eyes with no vision in the left and an eye injury from walking into walls. She arranged to see the diabetic specialist nurse about weight fluctuation and the GP will investigate her physical deterioration.
Despite the complications, Agnes continues to self-manage her condition which she states is under control, and remains active with the Guyanese community.
Reflection
During the interview and seven conversations with Agnes few questions needed to be asked. She spoke openly about her problems and the loneliness following the death of her husband despite a busy lifestyle. I felt more confident with the PAR process so could reflect more. Occasionally I slipped into a counselling role when an individual was upset but realised empathy was required to develop the relationship.
Agnes made every effort to manage her condition in spite of her issues and complications but needed more knowledge and information, some of which she got from PAR group sessions and I sent her information when she could not attend. I recommended ‘Balance’ magazine which the other women subscribed to for articles and current information on diabetes.
Jillian’s storyline
I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes in 2002 following a visit to my husband’s brother and his wife who noticed that I was losing weight and suggested that I had my blood sugar tested. My husband’s brother also a diabetic tested me and it was 14. He advised me to go and see my doctor so that is when it started. I saw the doctor who sent me to the hospital and then I was put on tablets.
I didn’t know I had diabetes because I did not have the usual symptoms like being thirsty or anything like that but I have a family history of diabetes.
Both of my parents were diabetic. My mother and then my father too got it. My mother died from kidney failure. She used to be on insulin but my father lived to a good old age. I think he was on insulin as well. I have a sister that is a nun who is diabetic and my daughter was diagnosed at university when she was 23/24 and was put immediately on insulin. She is now 40.
The diabetic nurse at Park Hospital sees me on a regular basis. She keeps a check on my weight because I had put a lot on with the diabetes. She had therefore put me on the Beretta injection and was quite pleased because I had lost so much weight only having the injection once a day. However I am having it twice now when I remember. I am not used to giving it to myself in the evening before my meal so I have to remember that you have to have it on an almost empty stomach. I see the consultant twice a year that checks my foot, soles of my feet, reflexes and toes. Two weeks before I see him I have blood tests taken at the hospital. They keep quite a good check on me.
I take two Metformin tablets in the morning, two in the evening and one Glimepiride in the morning. I monitor my diabetes closely by taking my blood sugar about once a week, sometimes twice a week. It is normally 6.-something or 7.-something. I watch what I eat for example, I eat a lot of fruit after breakfast in the morning, at 1 o’clock and more fruit by 4 o’clock. I have porridge at least twice a week. If I don’t have porridge I have two slices of bread or toast.
When I am hungry I have my meal but I have it much earlier than I used to. I find that I sleep better. My diet consists partly of Guyanese foods. I don’t cook every day. I just eat what I feel like, chicken, meat balls or soup. Sometimes I would have a jacket potato with tuna and salad and I would do spaghetti bolognaise every other week. I love my rice. I would either cook a casserole or roast a chicken. If I don’t feel like cooking, I drink soup. A Guyanese dish of cook up rice with black eye peas or with split peas or just cabbage and curries are some of my favourite dishes that I eat. Oh gosh I love plantains either ripe ones sometimes fried or green ones. What I also love is egg-plant but I find that any time I eat egg-plant I get pain so I tend to avoid it. I eat a fair amount of spinach and salad.
I get the Balance magazine once a month and get in touch with them if I need to. I support the magazine by selling raffle tickets.
I was born and grew up in Georgetown. I went to St Rose’s, Convent school and life was wonderful in Guyana in those days. I met my husband when I was at the Government treasury department and I then worked at a bank. However I had to resign after the birth of my first child as it was the bank policy. I worked at another company prior to coming to England in 1964.
We arrived in November and it was so cold. I just wanted to go back to Guyana. I didn’t like it at all and of course I wasn’t working then because my boys were just three and five so I was just a housewife. While in Guyana of course you had a nanny. Then I got chilblains during our first Christmas in England. It was horrendous but then we lived in a flat and I had never lived in a flat before. After about the first six months we moved to the house and it was much better. It was just a little cul-de-sac with 12 houses and the people were really nice. When I had the two girls I don’t know what I would have done to be honest without the people living in that street. They were wonderful.
When we moved into the house we needed central heating so my husband suggested that I would have to work to help him pay for the central heating. He worked for the Guyana High Commission as a diplomat. I went to an agency and did temping and worked as a secretary and then in the warehouse for a large department store.
We had to return to Guyana in 1971 as my husband became chief of protocol. He was considered to be the pathway to the foreign minister and prime minister. Maybe that is when I developed diabetes with all the eating and partying and all the entertaining that we had to do. I don’t know how to explain what life was like in 1971. It was ok. I got a fabulous job with the UN which was tax free. It was the UN branch of agriculture. Eventually I became like the office manager and did all the salaries. To be honest I think I earned more than my husband because my job was tax free with bonuses. I used to pay my servants including a cook, maid, gardener and an old lady who used to come in to wash and iron the clothes.
I needed the staff because I still had the children as the girls were then 8 and 9. The boys did their ‘O’ levels in Guyana. One of the girls was born with a hole in her heart so she had to be seen every other year at Great Ormond street so once when we returned to England, I think this was about 1977/78, my husband said ‘we are not taking the boys back to Guyana’ because at that time the Prime Minister Burnham was taking especially the middle class children out of school and sending them to work in the interior. My husband said ‘the boys are not coming back with us’. So I said ‘are we going to leave them alone here’? Mark at this stage was about 16 or 17 just doing his A levels so he said ‘yes’ let them get Saturday jobs. We owned the house so he said ‘let them work and feed themselves’. I was flabbergasted. I didn’t want to leave my children here in England. Anyway Gladys my neighbour who was like my English sister and Marie who both lived nearby said ‘you must not worry, we are going to look after them so they are not left on their own’. Fortunately I was able to send money for them so that they could eat properly and pay the bills.
We returned to England in 1981, sold that house and bought a bigger one. Then they were on their own again as they were old enough to be left when we were posted to the Solomon Islands and Fiji. Anyhow when my husband was posted to the Bahamas I couldn’t go with him. I only spent two weeks of his posting there. One of my daughters wanted to go to university so I had to be here with them.
We came back permanently in 1985 and I have been here ever since. I had a fabulous job as PA to a financial controller. After I was made redundant I really didn’t want to work anymore but my husband started to buy the local papers to look for a job so I started to work again. I worked for a small manufacturing company for the hair dressing and beauty trade. I continued studying and did a course in reflexology. Well that was brilliant because I was then 60 so I paid the barest minimum for the course. My husband stopped going out so I used to earn good babysitting money.
So with all my reflexology and babysitting money I saved and used to spend on my catalogue clothes and so forth. Almost every year I went to Canada on holiday to visit my two brothers and two sisters and to Barbados to see my sister and cousins.
From the age of 50 my husband and I had a number of personal problems as he was impotent and refused to seek treatment. You know I can’t explain it but we lived more like brother and sister instead of husband and wife.
I didn’t realise he was having dementia. He wasn’t taking an interest like he used to and controlling our account so I should have suspected that something was wrong. When I went to the supermarket I used to take cash back. That was how I used to get back my money. Sad isn’t it but that is how I coped.
From the beginning when I got married he controlled my wages. He would put it down on paper and budget it so it was always like that. He sussed me out.
Everybody especially my children used to say mom ‘dad has money’ but at the end he didn’t have any money. I knew what he did with his money. He used to buy silver and antiques. He also paid off the mortgage. I don’t know if he had a lady. I feel if you have a lady love, you would have to spend money on that woman and he wasn’t the type to be free with his money. There are not many women that would accept a love affair without money.
When he went to the Solomon Islands, I had to buy another house because the previous one had become too small for the family. I had a friend who was much older than me but I loved her. She said Jillian whatever you want to do in this house you should do it because when your husband returns he is going to say you can’t have this and that. She knew him very well.
It knocked the confidence out of me for instance I was always doing a course because I went to night classes and I did lamp shade covering and cake decorating. He never said I did a good job or shows any appreciation for what I did. After a time I didn’t bother with him. He was trying to keep me under his thumb.
We were married for 51 years when he died. After the children grew up I thought I could leave but then I thought ‘what the hell’ I did so much to make this marriage. Why should I give up now when I could go on my holidays?
Before I was made redundant from my last job I had a very responsible position and my husband was making it difficult for me to sleep. He said ‘would you mind if I went and slept in the TV room. I said ‘no I wouldn’t mind’. From then on he slept in the TV room on the sofa and he was very happy. When I got my redundancy money from my last job, I bought a very expensive bed because of my back and he wasn’t sleeping with me anyway. I have it here now in this flat.
When he became ill I used to give him his insulin because he had diabetes too. They found out he had diabetes when he was posted to the Bahamas. He managed it well until he got the dementia. I had to put him in a home not too far away from here so I could visit regularly. I could not manage him at home and he seemed to be happy there. The children visited him regularly too. My husband passed away in February this year.
I am enjoying life now. I don’t want another man honestly as I can come and go as I like, do what I like, spend what I like. I know how much I have to spend so I live within my means.
Ongoing dialogue and reflections
Jillian was keen to talk about her life even before I turned on the recorder so I did not need to ask any questions. In her home setting this middle class lady wanted to share her innermost thoughts and experiences with me, developing a trusting relationship from our initial meeting. Jillian lived a diplomatic life for several years, some in Guyana but mainly in England. When her husband travelled alone to assignments she mostly remained in England with their four children, twin girls and two boys who keep in regular contact with her
Jillian married in 1961 in Guyana but after the first year realised her husband wanted to control her which resulted in a very turbulent relationship causing a lot of stress for her. She remained married for fifty one years because of the time and money she had invested in it. Her husband died from Alzheimer’s disease in February 2011.
Jillian’s diabetes was discovered by chance as she did not notice any symptoms. Although husband, daughter, sister and parents had it she was surprised to be diagnosed. She keeps to a diet, takes prescribed medication regularly, Beretta to help lose weight and has regular check-ups at the hospital diabetic clinic. She showed strengths in taking control, managing the condition and in later months keeping up to date by reading the Balance magazine. In the follow-up phone conversation she felt the transcript was a true reflection of what was discussed so I then sent her the long story.
During four visits she talked more about the diabetes and on the anniversary of her husband‘s death shared her feelings that she missed him. Jillian felt sad after being together for so many years. The children were very supportive and choral singing served as a distraction for her. She continued to lose weight.
The hospital diabetic service referred Jillian back to the GP in March 2012 which she accepted but admitted that she has had to learn to live with diabetes. During a body massage and Reiki the complementary therapists noticed problems with her chest. She was referred to the hospital and told she had a slight heart murmur but the X-ray was clear.
Jillian also had problems with an ankle, causing severe pain which the consultant diagnosed as an inflamed tendon. It has been suggested she should use a stick for balance and a boot is being made to support her foot.
Reflection
On reflection the interview was carried out in a small dining room on a very hot day with the window closed against traffic noise, but the stuffy environment did not affect the interaction. I could have suggested that we moved to the lounge but I was so surprised in the way she opened up to me, did not want to disturb the positive dialogue that had been created. She seemed desperate to talk therefore I just encouraged her and listened. I felt very comfortable and at ease with this woman in this setting and it was one of my better interviews even though it focused more on relationships than diabetes. She talked extensively about her life in Guyana and early life in England, with gaps filled at a later date. Jillian was keen to join the PAR group and host the sessions.
Constructs
As discussed in Chapter 5, eight women were interviewed, talked about their experiences of living with Type 2 Diabetes and the impact the condition has had on their individual lives, earlier memories of life in Guyana and when they migrated to the UK. The stories were analysed and I then compiled a list of all significant statements from each of them and wrote up the commonalities between these participants’ long stories as constructs. In other research clustered text, commonalities or constructs might be called ‘findings’. For the purpose of the inquiry I will use the term ‘constructs’.
Thirteen constructs were derived from the one to one interviews (see Appendix 10. for full analysis). These were:
Diagnosis – the women conveyed various experiences in receiving a diagnosis with three of them experiencing delay even with a family history
Symptoms of Type 2 Diabetes – nearly all of them were experiencing symptoms such as dizziness and drinking copious amounts of fluid except Jillian and were aware of them but the presenting symptoms were largely unrecognised by their GP
Family History – nearly all of them had relatives including parents and siblings with diabetes
Gathering information – there was a lack of clarity regarding the information sought or obtained as some of the women appeared to be misinformed
Self-management – focused on self-management of diabetes including the use of alternative therapies
Expected lifestyle changes – the women were learning to live with diabetes and lifestyle changes meant a readiness to disengage from old habits
Complications – all the women were experiencing complications possibly as a result of hypoglycaemic episodes
Religion/faith – played a key role in helping the women cope with diabetes
Depressed/low – they all experienced changes in mood as they considered diabetes to be an incurable condition
Stress and diabetes – the women believed stress influenced their diabetic state
Being Guyanese – they all talked about their previous lives in Guyana in glowing terms
Preoccupation with food – they loved to eat and loved their traditional food
Maintaining contact with the Diaspora was a survival strategy
Diagnosis
The first construct derived from the interviews is diagnosis. Vera, Marjorie and Shirley experienced a delay in diagnosis as their symptoms were ignored by the doctors. Marjorie “thought she had this thing” because she was drinking two litres of cola in half a day but failed to obtain a correct diagnosis despite making several visits to her GP. She said “I went to the doctor and informed him that I was pretty certain I am diabetic but the doctor thought I was a hypochondriac”. He said “no you are not even though I had been going there every month”. This could be perceived as negligent practice as both Marjorie and Vera waited six months and eighteen months respectively before they were diagnosed. Evidence suggests that even though diabetes management in primary care has improved in more recent years, there is still variability in standards, “an estimated 14 percent of the number of individuals with diabetes in England remains undiagnosed” (Goodwin et al. 2010:53)
Marjorie and Agnes experienced shock when they received the news that they had diabetes and the devastating effect receiving bad news can have on an individual is captured in this quote from Marjorie. She said “I came out of the clinic screaming and crying because the two things I would never want to have is diabetes and AIDS” but realized that “you learn to live with it”. Agnes reacted with resignation to living with the condition although initially shocked by the news even though she had cared for her son and husband with diabetes. Jane, Agnes and Bea, whose family members had the condition, were prepared to some extent as they regularly checked with their doctors to enquire if they had the condition and were trying to manage their diet and weight. Diabetes UK (2009) sums up the mixture of feelings that an individual can display when given a diagnosis, shock and anger can occur but some may not show any reactions at all.
Delay in diagnosis was not therefore uncommon among the women. It seemed their voices were not heard. Shirley said “unfortunately doctors are blinkered”. In contrast, Agnes, who was recently diagnosed, experienced very good follow up care.
Symptoms
It is expected that an individual with diabetes will present with certain symptoms for example, dizziness, blurred vision, drinking copious amounts of fluid and feeling tired prior to diagnosis. In this second construct, nearly all the women experienced these similar diabetic symptoms but Vera’s were quite severe as she was ‘drinking everything’ and she had put on half a stone which was contrary to Bea and Agnes who were losing weight. Marjorie experienced similar ones which were treated lightly. It was only when she nearly went blind that some action was taken by her doctor to treat her condition.
Bea noted feeling dizzy after work and attributed the symptoms to her exhausting work schedule as a midwife which her doctor failed to recognise. Jane said she had no symptoms but in her interview highlighted the night sweats. Following a consultation with her doctor, she discovered that she was experiencing hypoglycaemia which evidence (MacArthur & Gibson 2012) suggests is a serious and life threatening complication that occurs when the blood glucose levels drop very low.
Shirley attributed not feeling ‘right’ to her job and only after consulting her doctor several times was informed ‘we have a result now’. Agnes noticed feeling dizzy with blurred vision when walking but unlike the others claimed her doctor investigated immediately. Jillian mentioned that she had no symptoms but when describing her loss of weight to a family member with diabetes was advised to see her doctor immediately. She seemed unaware about what was happening to her. This construct raises serious concerns regarding two issues.
Firstly some genuinely recognized that something was wrong but could not get a proper diagnosis from health care practitioners.
Secondly those with symptoms failed to recognize there was a problem.
The discussion around this construct will be further developed in Chapter 8.
Family history
Shock accompanied the diagnosis yet most should not have been surprised as they had a significant predisposition to the condition with various family members diagnosed with diabetes (Talmud et al. 2010). Family history became the third construct. On reflection Vera realized that her father and cousins may have had diabetes but never admitted it. Her father referred to it as ‘a touch of sugar’. She felt she was probably prone to diabetes from an early age as she had hives known as ‘mad blood’, a term used by Guyanese when eating anything sweet.
Bea claimed she came from a diabetic family, paternal grandmother, father, uncle and her father’s niece. Jane’s father and grandparents died from the condition and when the GP diagnosed her as borderline she attended exercise classes and tea dances to keep fit. Pam’s five sisters have diabetes and mother and grandmother died from it. Agnes could not recall a family history of the condition except for her son with Type 1 Diabetes, her husband developing Type 2 Diabetes in later years and a twin sister who now has it. Jillian’s husband, parents, sister and daughter have diabetes. The evidence indicates a genetic component linked to Type 2 Diabetes. This evidence will be explored in the discussion Chapter 8.
Gathering information
The information the women received was lacking in clarity and was not considered to be of a culturally acceptable standard. Gathering information therefore became the fourth construct. Only one woman attended the local health service diabetic education classes. Others searched the internet and talked about alternative therapies. Shirley said: “sweet things do not have anything to do with diabetes, it is another myth”. Whilst individuals with diabetes can have some sugar this statement is dismissive of its relevance and need for monitoring.
The women sought information from various sources which did not assist them in obtaining all they required. Even though Vera, Jane, Shirley and Jillian subscribed to the Diabetes UK Balance Magazine they each used the magazine differently. Vera found it interesting but not for information regarding her condition. She complained she had not received any diabetic education sessions but admitted that she tried to work things out for herself and do her own research, claiming “she spoke to the nurse every six months”, who carried out routine monitoring. Jane said she was too busy to read the magazine. Shirley read the letters in the magazine and believed that doctors were blinkered and did not always consider the co-existing complications. She claimed to make every attempt to keep informed via her scientist son or reading her favourite text on diabetes and believes that “certain things are beyond one’s control”. Jillian got the magazine, initially did not read it but does now and supports Diabetes UK through raffle ticket sales and getting in touch when she needs to. It seemed that the women found it difficult to make the appropriate contact with the health care system to meet their information needs.
Marjorie compared Guyanese and English attitudes to the diabetic diet. The differing guidance offered to individuals from both countries was raised and Marjorie questioned the advice given to those with the condition in Guyana. Pam admitted having lots of health books and information from the diabetic course. She talked about the benefits of the course being instrumental in helping her to choose foods she could eat. Bea was aware of the foods to be avoided for a balanced and healthy diet. She identified what caused an hypoglycaemic coma when taking insulin but had never experienced one. Acquiring knowledge and information in diabetes is important because it helps the individual to take control of their condition through self-management. The evidence will be discussed in Chapter 8.
Self-management – alternative therapies
Self-management, the fifth construct, focuses on complementary and alternative therapies and taking control of diabetes. The women self-managed their diabetes with a range of methods. Pam recounted her mother using herbal medicine to improve her eyesight and diabetes but there is no evidence to support this except that she saw a qualified practitioner. It is unclear what type of practitioner; however Pam regularly takes herbal treatments which she believes make a difference to her experience of living with diabetes.
Bea also talked about herbal preparations she used alongside insulin treatment such as Malaysian beechnut, karela tea made from a Guyanese fruit and cinnamon. Agnes’s husband and son regularly drank herbal remedies to treat their diabetes and encouraged her but she is rather sceptical about them. When her pastor suggested that she drank okra juice she only took it once. There is evidence to support BME groups using herbal treatments alongside prescribed treatments so this data is not new and is associated with beliefs about herbs having curative properties or improving quality of life (Hunt et al. 2000). The evidence is discussed in Chapter 8.
Self-management has an expectation that people will take control of their lives. Whilst the women recognised this, there was a wide variation in ‘taking control’ and decision making about healthy eating. Some knew what a diabetic diet should consist of and foods to avoid. Others ensured that they had regular check-ups and monitored their diabetes. Knowing how to navigate the services and seek support and guidance for their condition was an issue for majority of the women.
Expected lifestyle changes
The sixth construct refers to expected life changes. The women vividly recalled that when diagnosed they would change their lifestyle, closely watch food intake and take regular exercise but there was variation among them in taking up these behavioural changes. My understanding is that being able to make lifestyle changes is dependent on readiness to change (Prochaska et al. 1994). Readiness means disengaging from old habits and behaviours. One way to assess whether they had changed their behaviours is to explore the lifestyle changes made. Few had an exercise plan; only one maintained a log book and monitored glucose regularly. They claimed changes in their eating programme but most were still overweight. Three used walking sticks for support as arthritis was experienced as co-morbidity. Perhaps limited mobility is a reason why routine exercise is difficult to plan.
Complications
The seventh construct refers to complications experienced by the women, possibly as a result of the hypoglycaemia episodes. Hypoglycaemia can be caused by insulin, exercise, food (specifically glucose containing carbohydrates) being too much or incorrectly timed (MacArthur & Gibson 2012). However Bea is aware that she has Type 2 Diabetes as she said “I know it is a progressive disease but you learn to live with the complications. It affects all your organs in your body such as your kidneys, eyes and feet” but for some of the women their management of diabetes is less than adequate or due to the progression of the disease.
We did not gather biomedical data so can rely only on stories told. It was concerning that the women’s diabetes appeared advanced. The women experienced several complications for example retinopathy which occurs as a result of persistent high levels of glucose that can cause damage to the eyes. Neuropathy is another complication that affects the nerves in the body leading to tingling and numbness and cardiovascular disease or diseases of the heart. Three women had hypertension and high cholesterol that can affect the heart. These and other complications were also discussed in the group sessions which will be addressed in Chapter 8.
Religion/faith
The eight construct is about the spiritual perspectives that play an important role in the women’s lives. Religious beliefs seemed to help the women to cope with their condition. Two women converted to Buddhism and chant when faced with stressful situations while others attend church regularly. We should not underestimate the power of spiritual beliefs and the effects it can have on the individual when faced with a life threatening situation. As one woman put it “I believe you can cure anything because I’m a Buddhist and we have a great faith that the body can heal itself”. Bea who is a Buddhist believes faith helps her “to come to terms with my diabetes”. Shirley: “prays” when she needs to and finds it a great comfort. Agnes believes that “the church and God is keeping her in good health”. This construct is discussed further in Chapter 8.
Depression/feeling low
As discussed, my background as a Mental Health Nurse meant I was finely tuned to psychological disturbances. The women often described themselves as feeling depressed or experiencing changes in mood that they attributed to living with diabetes as an incurable chronic condition. This was construction number nine. Two expressed sometimes feeling low about their diabetes rather than having a full blown depression particularly when they felt they were self-managing but their glucose levels remained high. Shirley experienced “quite a low unexplained feeling” but did not identify it as depression. Agnes admitted that she was not depressed but feeling lonely because she was missing her husband who had recently died. Jillian expressed feelings of sadness and loss for her husband who died in a care home but was still coming to terms with the loss. Depression emerged again in the group sessions as the women explored their feelings in more depth. The evidence is discussed in Chapter 8.
Stress and diabetes
In the tenth construct, speculation about the cause of diabetes was rife with most women agreeing stress was a strong precursor. Vera, Bea, Marjorie and Shirley wondered if stress had caused their diabetes. They recalled stressful episodes in their lives and made connections with the appearance of symptoms. They commented on whether stress associated with their jobs was a trigger. Bea was pleased when asked to retire as being a midwife was challenging. She acknowledged that “stress can have an effect on you” as she found “midwifery very stressful because it is not one life, you have to think about but two: the baby and the mother”. Bea made a serious attempt to lead a healthy life but still developed diabetes. She felt “stress may be one of the triggers for her diabetes in combination with my genes”. The association of stress with diabetes warrants further investigation in Chapter 8.
Guyana
It is not unusual for migrants to talk about the country they left years ago in glowing terms. All the women gave glowing accounts of ‘back home’. Their lives changed dramatically when they left the tropical warmth of Guyana for England. As middle class women they led privileged lives and being Guyanese was important to them. This was number eleven in terms of constructs. Most experienced a reversal of class and for the first time being referred to as women from a BME community. As one women said “one notice on the door said coloured people and dogs were not welcome”. Some of the women faced discrimination when they came to the UK which they did not expect and the standard of living changed significantly for some. Jillian sums this up in her quote. She said “we arrived in November and it was cold … then I got chilblains. It was horrendous but then I lived in a flat and I had never lived in a flat before”. Given the circumstances, it would be easy to understand them seeking comfort in each other’s company and enjoying traditional comfort food rich in carbohydrates and fat. Many transitions have been made with migration being one of the biggest, but coming to terms with diabetes and learning to self-manage their condition involved lifestyle changes. In our opinion this was achieved with limited success and I postulate that resistance to a complete change in lifestyle was cultural.
Preoccupation with food
The twelfth construct is the women’s preoccupation with food. Most of the stories told were about food and their relationship with Guyanese food. All the women talked about traditional foods and although they claimed moderation in quantity and frequency food was foremost in their minds. Lifestyle and diet changes represented a big challenge. Shirley admits that she has lost the taste for a “proper Guyanese diet but sticks to cassava, plantain and rice”. Bea found that she cannot “eat too much rice because that really increases my blood sugar level”. Marjorie had made a lot of changes to her diet, she said “now I eat greens and proper portions, the other Guyanese foods I eat are black pudding, pepper pot, garlic pork, ‘metemgee’ and ‘chow mein’ but that is healthy because it is vegetables and noodles”. Pam preferred “a lot of leafy green vegetables and water based fruit because that is what the body needs”. Jillian loved “a Guyanese dish of cook up rice with black eye peas or with split peas and curries are some of my favourite dishes”. The Guyanese diet is discussed in Chapter 2.
Maintaining contact with the Diaspora
The thirteenth construct refers to the women maintaining contact with the diaspora as a survival strategy. The majority joined the PAR group because other Guyanese women would attend. However there is some inconsistency with this viewpoint because two women chose not to attend even though they knew like-minded Guyanese women would be present. Marjorie said “as Guyanese living in England we tend to stick together”. They have a profound loyalty and travel long distances to be with each other and maintain contact with Guyanese in Canada, USA and Guyana. One said “I have a lot of support from Guyanese friends whom I talk to regularly”. Jane admitted that she is “a very active person in the Guyanese community and supports the Guyanese High Commission”.
Conclusion
The focus of this chapter has been on one to one storytelling interviews. The women were given opportunities to tell their story within a safe environment in their own home. I achieved my aim in this inquiry as I listened to the women’s voices and privileged their storytelling.
The women’s stories were analysed and constructs identified for similar commonalities in experience but with a measure of difference in how they learned to live with diabetes. Thirteen constructs were derived from the one to one interviews. From these constructs I felt that the key issues emerging from the women’s stories included how they felt powerless when they tried to obtain a confirmed diagnosis of their diabetes; it seemed their voices were not heard. As majority of the women had either parents or siblings with diabetes, the evidence within the literature review suggests a genetic disposition towards developing the condition. Other lifestyle factors such as age, being overweight and lack of exercise may also cause an increased risk.
Although the women exhibited the symptoms of depression and stress, these problems were largely unrecognised by their GPs among this BME community. They demonstrated a thirst for information yet what they gathered from different sources failed to meet their needs. There were noticeable gaps in their knowledge and understanding of their condition relating to diet and lifestyle and when self-managing their diabetes, the women did not rely on the biomedical model of treatment. Instead they used CAM with their prescribed medication.
A more empowered and collaborative approach of diabetes education, sensitive to the individual’s needs seems to be required as these women from this BME community under-utilised various models of self-management such as the “Expert Patient” and DESMOND. Coming to terms with diabetes still remained a significant issue for them as they learn how to live with this long-term condition.
See Table 3 (p138) that summarises the interview constructs and corresponding exemplar quotes from the participants in the inquiry.
Table 3: Interview constructs and exemplar quotes
Key Constructs
Diagnosis
Symptoms of Type 2 Diabetes
Family history
Getting information
Self-management
Expected lifestyle changes
Complications
Religion/faith
Depressed/feeling low
Stress and Diabetes
Being Guyanese
Preoccupation with food
Maintaining contact with the Diaspora
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Exemplar quotes
“I went to the doctor and informed him that I am pretty certain I am a diabetic but the doctor thought I was a hypochondriac. Following the initial shock of being diagnosed with diabetes you learn to live with it”. (Marjorie)
“One of the first symptoms experienced was when I came home from work I would feel a bit dizzy. I didn’t know what was wrong and started to lose weight”. (Bea)
“Both of my parents were diabetic. My mother died from kidney failure. I have a sister who is diabetic and my daughter was diagnosed at university”. (Jillian)
“One of the best things I attended was my six week diabetic course because they gave me a book and the course was really instrumental in helping me to identify the foods I could eat”. (Pam)
I went on insulin in 1999 at my instigation. I kept having the tablets combined with the diet but these were not working satisfactorily, the condition was becoming more chronic. I told them I needed to go on insulin. They gave in. Again you have to be your own doctor”. (Vera)
“Over the years your lifestyle changes so you have to change with it. A similar thing occurs when you have diabetes you have to change with it”. (Marjorie)
If I didn’t eat the glucose levels dropped very low so I had to eat something if not I would get a hypoglycaemic coma and that is not very nice”. (Shirley)
“When managing my diabetes, I believe that the church helps me to relax and I always have faith that God will heal. I believe that it is God who is keeping me in good health”. (Agnes)
“Quite a low unexplained feeling”. (Shirley)
“I believe stress can have an effect on you. I think that stress may be one of the triggers for diabetes”. (Bea)
In England I came at the worst time when we had that fog and smog. Oh it was horrible. It was hard coming from a privileged lifestyle to a different lifestyle. I missed the sun, sea, friends and all the privileges”. (Marjorie)
“A Guyanese dish of cook-up rice with black eye peas or with split peas or just cabbage and curries are some of my favourite dishes that I eat. Oh gosh I love plantains either ripe ones sometimes fried or green ones”. (Jillian)
“I am an active person in the Guyanese community and support the Guyanese High Commission”. (Jane)
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In the next chapter I will discuss phase two of the inquiry which is focused on researching alongside the participants in the group guided by the principles of ‘looking, thinking and acting as an iterative process.
Chapter 7
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