A participatory Action Research Study with Guyanese Women Living with Type 2 Diabetes in England



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Ongoing dialogue and reflections

Bea is a retired diplomat’s wife and is a quiet woman. She enjoyed her childhood and early adult life in Guyana. Bea came to England on her own in the 1950s to study nursing. Her husband was a lawyer and England became their country of residence. Long periods were spent working and living abroad with her husband as diplomats whilst their two daughters and one son were in boarding school so she wondered whether this absence affected their relationships.

Her son had moved away but now lives with them. Bea has a strained relationship and little contact with one daughter but a good one with the other who is married with two daughters. Whilst in St Lucia she took responsibility for one of her granddaughters when her daughter could not cope with both. She returned to England following her husband’s retirement to work as a midwife but retired due to diabetes in 1997, associating stress with work as a midwife. She reflected this may have caused her diabetes despite taking every precaution including no sugar, small food portions and eating healthily. Some of her personal stress has been alleviated.

Bea missed both her parents but refrained from talking about their deaths whenever the question was raised. Bea believes Buddhist teachings and herbal therapies like karela tea, beechnut and foods such as green plantains and fish help her to cope. I interviewed her three times and from her conversation, it indicated she was managing her diabetes. She was aware of a hereditary component recalling a history of diabetes on her father’s side (who ate whatever he wanted) but none diagnosed in her mother’s family.

Bea was prescribed metformin but developed kidney problems. The metformin was withdrawn and she has since been prescribed insulin. She is self-managing with a strict diet but has the occasional lapses eating sweet things like cakes. Her pattern of managing the diabetes is explained as “cheats” compensated by being ‘good’ and sticking to the diet the next day. Bea talked about finding a cure.

After an active life she can only walk short distances. Bea maintains regular contact with three sisters and a brother, the youngest sister has diabetes. We discussed by phone how she managed her condition on insulin. She felt she had more control and flexibility in keeping the blood sugar levels down depending on what she planned to eat that day.

Bea believes that health care practitioners at the GP diabetic clinic do not understand her needs, denying her a service that should be a right, and she asked again to be referred to the hospital. Her diabetic neuropathy is now being treated. She feels having to wait a few days before her glucose sticks prescription is renewed affects her management of the condition.

Bea made a concerted effort during this inquiry to exercise daily and was eager to become a member of the group offering her home as a venue but mobility problems meant she required a lift to the sessions elsewhere.

Further conversations revealed she had a series of recent falls which are being investigated. I noticed too that her husband has had memory lapses and had forgotten to give her my messages. Following a discussion, Bea has asked for him to be referred to a memory clinic for assessment as he may be showing early signs of dementia.

Reflection

I was warmly received at the first interview and Bea confirmed the transcript was a true record of what had been said when it was returned for co-construction. After I completed the analysis and developed the storyline with Bea, I sent my supervisor our combined effort. Being mentored in PAR is important to instil confidence.

Guyana was on Bea’s mind. Bea recalled a celebrity kind of existence of large houses, servants and chauffeurs and travelling with her husband to many countries, in comparison she lives in a modest London house and accepts they have to live carefully on pensions. On reflection I could have explored the losses in her life of parents, children away in school and way of life. She admitted missing her parents but not the diplomatic life. Perhaps my type of questions did not always get the expansive answers that I had observed in my supervisor. This was a skilled process that I was still getting to grips with and learning about for further interviews. In my continuing dialogue over a year with Bea I learnt a lot more about her and her family.

Bea and I established a relationship as the inquiry progressed. She showed a number of strengths in managing her condition and making decisions on improving self-management. Her action of taking more exercise increased daily as she noticed how much better she felt after a brisk walk.



Jane’s storyline

I was diagnosed with diabetes about 10/11 years ago after I retired from my position at a large department store. I did not have any symptoms but was aware that my father and grandparents had died from this condition so I took preventive action by checking regularly from the day I came to England to see if I had acquired it. I continued checking every two years with the GP who has been very supportive. He gave me my glucose tolerance test. Eventually my doctor informed me that ‘you are on borderline’ so I tried to rectify this by joining exercise classes and going to tea dances in the day.

I was on a diet only for the first three years but when I saw the consultant he suggested that I should go on Metformin. I have been on Metformin for seven years. I initially started with 2 Metformin daily but that dose was not effective so the consultant prescribed half a Glycoside for me to take daily as well. I see the consultant every six months for blood tests and my feet are checked. Once a year my eyes are X rayed and the glaucoma specialist sees me twice a year for a check-up. I get my meters free from the hospital to test my blood and I get the sticks from the doctor. Everything is free so I do not have to pay for anything. I never take any other medication just what the doctor has prescribed. I do know that the metformin tablets give you kidney infection because that is what my dad died from and I know other people who have problems with it.

During the early stages of the condition, my glucose levels were perfect in the daytime but when I went to sleep and woke up in the mornings, my sugar levels were always high and that is the case up to now. These remain high at 7 and 8 in the mornings.

I was sweating a lot during the night because I hadn’t eaten all night and the consultant believed that I was having a hypoglycaemic coma. I felt the body was going hypo at night as I would be wet all over. Then I did the ‘all through the day test’ and I became aware that my levels cause no problems during the day however the problem occurred at night because in the day I am very active and feel fine. If I don’t tell people that I have diabetes they would never know because I do everything that a normal person would do.

The consultant suggested that I ate a slice of bread before going to bed and the sweating eventually stopped. About two years ago I was started on insulin so I take insulin once a day at night. From what I know I am going to ask him to take me off the tablets and introduce more insulin. This new regime is now starting to make a difference because I know exactly what to eat.

My diet is simple. For breakfast, I eat two slices of bread in the morning or sometimes I have two eggs a week, fresh salmon or maybe cheese. I don’t drink milk. I eat a lot of salads including lots of cucumber for lunch and my dinner consists of a little rice and a stew of something. I will eat a lot of salt fish, okra and karela or maybe a potato. I don’t overeat because my stomach can’t take it. I would eat about three or four times a day but this will depend on how heavy the meal is.

In order to keep up to date with my diabetes, I have joined the Diabetes Wilderness but I never have time to read the magazine which comes very month. I start reading the magazine but I am a busy person. I sit on the neighbourhood forum and several other committees. I don’t know where I find the time. I used to attend diabetic classes but have stopped. I still do my shopping, some catering and attend dance classes to keep active. I also used to go to dances in the evening with a friend who lived up the road but he died. I occasionally still go on my own but because I live out of the way coming home late at night can be problem. I used to come home on the bus 3 o’clock in the morning and my granddaughter says ‘nanny why are you walking on the street so late by yourself’. I don’t go as often; instead I go to tea dances.

In mid-April 1973, I came to England with my son who was 14. At that time Guyana was rough therefore a friend of mine said ‘I want to tell you something I want you to take your son and get out of here’. He asked me ‘where in this world would you want to go’ so I said ‘I would like to go to England’. He said ‘give me your passport’ and he got passports for me and my son plus spending money and said ‘here is the date you have to leave here’. I was happy to leave but if he hadn’t sent us I would have remained in Guyana. I was born and grew up in Georgetown and was very comfortable, never worked only when I was very young. However I didn’t get the same kind of education like you girls got, I only went to the Modern Educational Institute which turned into Guyana Oriental College for eighteen months. Half of the time it was closed anyway, I just wasn’t the lucky one. My step brothers and some of my sisters were educated in Guyana. One sister chose to go to Carnegie school. My youngest sister went to St Joseph, the one who has cancer went to St Joseph and the other one finished her education in America. They went over as children.

I lived with my Dad for a short time while in England but then moved out and got my own place. I didn’t really know my Dad. I never lived with him but I knew he was sick that is why I came to England. However he died at age 69, 6/7 years after I came. His death did not really upset me, he was Dad and that was it. He had his other children.

When I first went to work as a chambermaid in a hotel, I used to get up at 6 o’clock in the morning and go to work and come home at 10 p.m. at night. I cleaned toilets. I did this job for 18 months until I married.

Due to the unsocial hours and not wanting to work week-ends, I changed the job. When you want to have a husband you have to be around for them so I went to work in the store and I stayed there for 26 years.

The job was a reasonable one. After all it is money and you had good and bad times. When all the changes were introduced like stores opening on Saturdays to suit the needs of the market, I originally worked half day on Saturdays then it changed to the whole day on Saturday. I left when they were just about to open on Sundays. They said they had to match the market. You were given an extra day off for working on Saturdays.

I have lived here in this house since August 1980 and I am actually finding it difficult to move. My husband died in 1990 in this same house. I realise that I need to get a smaller place as this one is now too big house for me to clean You have all of upstairs and all of here, and there and down there – (Jane is pointing out the various rooms in the house) I have bedrooms upstairs but I have to come downstairs to the toilet during the night. If I am not in the kitchen I am sitting here in the lounge and when I am tired, I go to sleep here. I have accumulated a lot of rubbish over the 31 years because I am always engaged in some sort of activity like making dolls or other crafts.

Now that I am retired and 71 years old, I still lead an active life. I get support from my family and friends. I live 70% of my time on my own but my granddaughter says she lives here too. I have my son and his new wife, my ex daughter in law and the two children and hundreds of friends. If you stay here long enough the phone will start ringing and it won’t stop. I also have my church. I have attended the same church since I moved to this house so I am part of the furniture of the church. I go to church almost every Sunday. I am not a devout Christian because if I want to swear I am going to swear. I am not a Godly person but I believe in God.

I am a very active person in the Guyanese community. Everyone knows who Jane is. You only have to say to them ‘do you know a lady called Jane, a Chinese lady, who dances’ and they will find me. You go to the high commissioner and say do you know Jane and he is going to say I know Jane.

I support the Guyana high commission that has a stall at the commonwealth fair. The next fair is on the 13th November and I have a stall there because I teach children to make jewellery. I sell my own jewellery and make a lot of craft and sell too.

Well my sister has got cancer. She lives in New York with my step Dad who is 95. I have just recently returned from America so I am waiting to see how they are coping. I have other brothers and sisters who are there but they have their own lives.

One brother says to me, ‘oh I’ll look after Daddy’. Where is he? He lives in New York so I said to my sister ‘is Daddy eating’? She said that ‘he is eating pizza because she can’t cook’. When I went in February you actually had to lift her out of the bed because she didn’t have the strength to do anything so I was cooking soups and food to make her strong. I felt guilty that I am here in England and he is eating pizza. I want to cry some days but then life has to go on.

My step Dad has more children and they should be more supportive. I am only a step child but being the eldest I feel responsible for him. That is how I feel. He is still kind of healthy, he doesn’t take tablets, drives a car and he can tell you everything that is going on in Guyana because he gets the free papers. None of my step brothers and sisters has diabetes. It is just me.

I am interested in the group and will come to the sessions if I am not busy but I do have a lot of local issues.
Ongoing dialogue and reflections

Initially I found it difficult to establish a relationship with Jane but we kept a dialogue going following my initial visit. She spoke briefly about her early life in Guyana and move to England. Jane is a socially active woman who loves dancing, belongs to many clubs and hosts fundraising events for Guyanese charities. Totally absorbed in Guyanese culture, she also caters for Guyanese events. She eventually did not join the group due to her many interests but was keen to keep in contact with me. I felt I might be able to persuade her to join the group later.

Jane stated she had no problems with her diabetes management, showed strengths in managing her diet, taking prescribed medication, keeping active and regularly using public transport. When diagnosed with diabetes she felt prepared because she was always checking for the condition as her father and grandparents died from it.

In May 2011, post interview I sent her transcript and phoned to discuss but she had not read it, being upset by the death of a sister from cancer living in New York and making arrangements to fly there. Jane promised to make contact with me on her return. I offered my condolences and ended the conversation.

Not hearing from Jane for over a month, I phoned with limited success until August 2011. She had returned from New York but was still grieving for her sister. Clearly she did not want to communicate so we arranged to resume contact in a few weeks. When I called a month later, Jane was more responsive but problems with the local council had occupied her time. She highlighted that she was still busy but managing her diabetes and the local hospital consultant had said it was under control. Although we communicated over a long period she declined my offer to visit again. She listed all the things she did that kept her busy but when I questioned if she would like me to continue she said she found the calls supportive. We arranged a longer conversation in March 2012 to follow up on the story sent to her and went through it together reflecting on what was said. Jane did not attend the PAR group sessions but still wanted to be a study participant so I kept her informed of the issues raised.

I was interested in hearing Jane’s responses to what being Guyanese meant as this had been discussed in the PAR group. She saw it as just the place where she was born but I learnt more about her life in Guyana. She described living with grandparents in a big house with servants as a class thing. Her father did not live there but he came for dinner daily at six p.m. She did not see her mother. She went to live with her father and step mother who took her out of school and life became difficult. She had no secondary schooling.

I asked Jane her reasons for not attending any PAR group sessions. She felt it was for people with nothing else to do. She considered herself well known in her community and involved in many activities such as the neighbourhood forum. She informed me she was going to New York for a few months to look after her 95 year old step-father and an aunt in Toronto.

I contacted Jane on two more occasions on her return and she invited me to a Guyanese dance she organised. We met there and she seemed well and felt she was managing her diabetes with no issues to report.



Reflection

Jane was a difficult person to engage with and seemed prepared to talk although it took time to establish the relationship. On reflection, it became acutely obvious that she was not keen to talk about her life in Guyana or her long-term condition. She made me feel welcome when I arrived for the initial interview, offering Guyanese delicacies she made especially for the visit. I asked a few questions but did not prolong the interview drawing it to a close with the intention of returning. I am not certain why she was not keen for me to visit again. I noticed that her large house had papers and large black bags lying everywhere. She kept making excuses for its condition to which I responded that I came to see her and not her house.

Jane eventually gave me some feedback about the transcript and her storyline stating it was an accurate record of what was discussed. I accepted her opinions regarding the group because she had the right to refuse if she felt it was not needed. I made an assumption that being Guyanese she would welcome meeting with other Guyanese women but Jane made it clear not everyone wants to attend a group related to their condition.

The relationship with Jane developed over time by telephone when she spoke more openly about her diabetes. On reflection, could I have done this differently? I still do not know but learnt from the process that perhaps I should have left the situation sooner.



Shirley’s storyline

I was diagnosed in 1998 when I was still at work. I just wasn’t feeling right. I went to see the doctor several times but she didn’t know what was wrong. She put it down to stress because I was having an Ofsted inspection at the time. The symptoms were tiredness and then eventually my eyes became blurred but I didn’t understand why. I didn’t realise that my vision was blurred until I was coming up the road one day and I could hardly read the shop sign clearly. I started to lose weight rapidly so the doctor investigated it further and said ‘we have got a result now, I can treat you’. It came as quite a shock when you are told that you have got diabetes because it is like the end of the world. I just accepted it really and I did quite a lot of reading around the topic from a special book that I have acquired.

I have been on tablets since then. I started off on one set of tablets but that didn’t keep the diabetes under control so I was put on a second set called Metformin which I am on until now.

I had to change my eating habits as I never liked to eat regularly. I ate erratically, so I was forced to eat properly and at the correct time. If I didn’t eat the glucose levels dropped very low so I had to eat something if not I would get a hypoglycaemic coma and that is not very nice. The coma occurs when the blood sugar levels drop so low that you lose consciousness if you don’t get something sweet to drink or be attended to quickly enough. It is about being able to regulate your diet and this only happens if I go out and don’t eat for a while.

Coming back to the management of diabetes and food, I never liked sweet things. Sweet things do not have anything to do with diabetes, it is another myth. I have about two slices of toast and two big cups of tea quite early in the morning for breakfast but my blood sugar drops by 11a.m. I get my intake of fluids and then depending on what I do I may have a banana or biscuit. At lunchtime, I feel guilty because I don’t sit down and have a proper lunch whatever I have in the house to eat pasta or something light I normally eat. In the evening I have a proper meal.

I don’t like cooking. It is not my strong point. Someone said you can’t come from Guyana and don’t like to cook. I said ‘I am sure not all Guyanese like cooking’. Colin, my son who lives with me likes curry but I can’t eat it due to all these various tablets that I am taking. I can’t digest it very well. I eat peas and rice but without coconut. Cook up rice is not cook up rice without coconut but I keep away from it due to my cholesterol level. With regard to a proper Guyanese diet I think I have lost the taste. I still like rice but again I know some people with diabetes can’t eat rice but I find that is my main source of carbohydrate, I like cassava now and again and eddoes in soup. My choice there is not very wide. I stick to cassava, plantain and rice and I eat less bread.

One of the problems of this condition is neglect and if you neglect yourself then it is not very good. My GP said you have to bother because it is a degenerative disease and it is not going anywhere. I knew there is no cure for it so it is best to accept it and to learn to live with it. You don’t feel well and you hope that you will feel better tomorrow or the next day. Some days I experienced quite a low unexplained feeling. My blood pressure and cholesterol are stable at the moment.

It is recognised that in having diabetes you have to keep it under control but you have to continue taking those tablets as well. I don’t usually do the finger prick with the sticks like I used to two or three years ago. I don’t get the sticks so easily now. There is a bit of controversy at the moment because the first thing they tell you is that it is very expensive and if you are on tablets they are very reluctant to dish them out. During the earlier times of the condition you would probably test in the morning and evening but as the years go by you get to know your body so there is no need for so much testing.

Do you know Balance Magazine? Sometimes people would write in letters discussing their condition. Unfortunately doctors are blinkered. All they see is diabetes and they don’t see other things that might well be wrong with you. Sometimes you want to tell them about something else that is not right. During the months of January and February I really wasn’t feeling well. I had the flu jab and I was getting flu like symptoms and I couldn’t understand it. I went into the doctors and luckily it was my doctor and from what I gathered she said ‘why are you not feeling well’, it couldn’t be the results of the flu jab so she sent me off for some blood tests. When the test results came back, these were normal except for the kidneys. The doctor was still unhappy with these results so further tests were carried out which eventually came back normal.

I don’t know how much you are aware of regarding problems Black people have with their kidneys especially those with diabetes who suffer from kidney failure. The kidney results are analysed differently in Black people as opposed to non-Black people. My surgery is very good at keeping an eye on me. Apparently the doctors calculate and interpret the test results differently. It is something to do with the body mass.

It is not just one thing to say you have diabetes; it is all these other things like heart problems that can affect you. If it was just the sugar level then that wouldn’t be too bad but it is the consequences of the sugar level. At the moment I have a review every four months and I do a blood test – HBA18c. It is a long term test that you have every three months and also they are supposed to do a kidney function test once a year and a liver function test once a year but I know some people who don’t have it done. I ask them and I do read a lot and sometimes I remind them that I am due for a kidney test?

How do you get through living with diabetes, I don’t know if I have ever thought of it that way. ‘I pray’. I suppose it helps but I try to look at it, I don’t know, in a more abstract way but that is the wrong thing to say. I suppose living with Colin who looks at everything scientific because he did his PhD in science so one can’t help looking at things that way. I don’t think you can really separate them. I try to read and keep myself informed but again certain things are beyond one’s control anyway. There is a book that I still read; she is a hilarious writer about diabetes. She is a superb writer and puts things in perspective and one of the things is ‘why me’ that people usually say ‘and it is a silly thing to ask’. I never sort of think that way. I find that the thinking to mind is quite reverse, how to cope with it, how to manage it for instance if you are going on holiday is more important. I must remember to do that so that I keep well and I don’t fall ill.

The other thing is getting things checked because you have so many things to check, feet and eyes. I go to the GP who deals with the sugar level, blood pressure and cholesterol and then he or the nurse would say have you had your feet checked then I go to somebody else to do that, podiatrist would check your feet or then I go to the hospital to have the retinopathy screening but it isn’t all done at the GP. You have to be aware of these things yourself. That is where the problem comes in. I often consider if you are not aware people go along quite merrily. They should have their feet checked. I was introduced to Hotter shoes. They make their own shoes and to be honest I swear by them. I only got another pair yesterday. I was able to wear them without any pinching and I am going to have to send for another pair.

I also have sciatica so I am not really so active like I used to be. Sciatica has nothing to do with diabetes. It is just a coincidence that I have it and because of that I can’t walk, bend, turn or haven’t been able to do anything for the past eight years. It is only the last two weeks that I went to see a physiotherapist who gave me some exercises but he said that there is nothing we can do. We can’t cure it but we can lessen the symptoms of pain. The pain is excruciating and because of that it limits how much walking I do.

I said to the physiotherapist that I walked home from church the Sunday before last. I hadn’t done that for almost three years. I was waiting for the bus and got fed up and thought I am going to try this so I told him I have done something I haven’t done for ages and he said ‘what is that’ and I said ‘I walked from church to home’. He said ‘how long was it’? I said about fifteen minutes and he was so pleased with himself. I think that has to do with confidence because there was somebody there giving me the exercises and then I was able to have that confidence to walk.

I can’t relate to life in Guyana with diabetes. I was happy in Guyana when I was growing up. I enjoyed a free life but it wasn’t a life of luxury. I come from Essequibo and I went to school there. Life in the Essequibo was nothing like Georgetown. It was a quieter life. I grew up in the Methodist church, went to a Methodist school and still go to a Methodist church.

My husband came to England first and then I joined him when I was 23. He was doing his degree. Most of my adult life has been in England. I was teaching and ended up being in charge of English and then head of department. That was too much work. I had enough and then Ofsted. I enjoyed teaching until the last few years when we had the changes. The school was just down the road so I stayed there all those years because it was convenient for Colin and Billy Jean to go to school to get their education. My husband went to Nigeria and at that time they were expanding the education system. He came back when Colin was about to do his ‘O’ levels as he felt he needed his father.

What can I contribute to the group really or say that they have not done already. I might learn something from them. I don’t know. They say diabetes changes. When you are first diagnosed it is one thing but ten years or twenty years later it could be managed quite differently. It is the same condition isn’t it? You are aiming for the same result - to keep the sugar level down.
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