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- 08.14.01 Early Morning
Mount Shasta Poem Cold, olden rushing wide river Snow melt from Mount Shasta above covered in needle pine—
through the trees along the water hauling garbage to the landfill that contaminates Mother Earth— and my sleep. Naked swimmers up stream on the rocks hugging and touching bare bottoms and kissing in the shade—
coming down through the trees bouncing off river rocks slick and oily tadpole reflections— music from the road above. I've been to see Japhy Ryder and S.F. Renaissance poets from the old alley streets, wet from Pacific rains up to Oregon redwoods surrounding new campfires at dawn.
writing letters across country with black and white photographs from Japan and hand scribed captions in the gutter— Middle aged hipster writing circles around the globe, chanting in open market isles, writing yellow cab big city mantras for coast to coast right minded highway ramblers bathing in the rivers, praying to the trees where God and existence become the same, and the dirt sticks to my feet, like castaway bandit stowedaway in the sun.
Dreamt last night that I was at a party at someone's house who I did not know. I was sitting in a room off to the side with Arlyn—I hadn't seen him since leaving Chicago in June. There was one other person in the room with us but I didn't know who it was. Arlyn was looking sick and I was horrified at the bullet hole in his forehead that was big enough to see the smooth red wet tissue lining of the back of his skull. His head inside where the cerebral cortex should be was empty. There was no bleeding, just a large gaping crevasse. I asked him with a shaky voice what happened. I was scared for him and wanted to help him and take care of his wound. He started to cry and his voice cracked and said that"Richard" had given him something for his headache. (Richard, I knew, was the drunken kid from the Mount Shasta shows who seemed rather convinced that he knew me from Eugene, Oregon. "No," I told him, "Not me, you've never met me before, must be someone else—" But, he managed to appear everywhere we went for the next week or so, then finally after the Oregon shows he stopped appearing. This, I thought, was a bit strange and maybe the reason for him appearing in the dream.) What Arlyn took was a pill that Richard laced with something to knock him out. Arlyn said he couldn't stand up after he took the pill. As he kept crying, he said that Richard made the hole in his head when he was knocked out, this frightened me more. Then I woke up. hey hombre. good to hear from you finally. its been a while. meeting a few ladies always helps the time to pass more interestingly, especially, i would imagine, in a nightlife mecca like chucktown. heehee. yeah, this summer was a blast with all those shows and crazy nights but the whole summer tour got old after a while. i was looking forward just to getting a place and hanging out and having a place to paint, maybe get a job (which hasnt happened yet! hehe, and im going broke. good thing Amia Diorios working a lot.) so from now on i will just hit the occasional good show here and there, a festival or two in the summer and fall. theres too many morons on tour just out to get fucked up on anything they can. they dont even care much about the music. i would love to do a PJ show with you some time soon. i havent seen any tour dates lately. whats the scoop? maybe ill go check the site. ive been listening a lot to the one disc i bought in chicago early summer of them in columbus. ohhh, boyyyyyyyitsa goodie. i keep getting these fuckin emails about the ten year reunion. ha! dont think ill be around for that. anyway it would seem a bit lame in the light of being on the brinks of ww3 and all. its all pretty surreal. my brother Joe and Danimal keenan drove out to NYC tuesday after the hits and worked in some supply distribution center as volunteers. i dont have much detail about it yet. also, i think im planing on being in chicago for christmas and out here snowboarding for new years. let me know the dates you will be coming through, we'll be waiting for you. come visit any time you want. boulders pretty lame and its really expensive to live here and i cant find a decent job, so as soon as we save enough cash and get outta this lease we're moving to missoula. i will eventually get my MFA there and Amia Diorios all stoked about that university as well. plus its a rad town and cheap to live. shit man.... plus, its MONTANA. but we'll probably be here until spring i guess. we'll see. ill just let you know. i used to email kurt a lot but now i cannot find his address. alright man, give me a call when you can. g you should check out university of montana in missoula. i think thats what im going to do as soon as i can get outta this fuckin lease. they've got a MFA in creative wr.: poetry, prose, fiction, nonfiction, on and on.... i will get residencey back in that bad ass town and pay about 1300 a semester, four or five semesters and have my MFA along with a teaching qualification. also, during the time im there can get grad teaching assts. and have a salary (low, very low, but enough to get through school) and reduced or NO tuition as a benefit of teaching undergrad classes, all part of the program. then, if i trade in my chances of being struck by lighting, i could possibly secure some sort of livable wage job there upon graduation. i hope brews and blues was good. if i could have ran there i maybe wouldve come. going to durango on thursday for 3 days for a wedding. camping out on wedding couples front yard i imagine. why dont we meet there? say: aaa...friday afternoon. beers at haggards. cool, see you there. Aspen? aspen sucks. just kidding. well, we'll be down in durango sippin on gin and juice. layed back. i dont have any money. what happened to writing after you got coffee? must be a busy bee there in that corner. is the tv on with the war coverage going non stop twenty four hours a day? i might have just gotten my graphics job back in missoula. see ya boulder. right now im watching rattle and hum (U2) ever see it? its one of the best music documentaries ive seen. and ive seen it a lot. at one point during my punk theiving days in high school, my buddy Jordan Fairway and i used to get into peoples lockers after school once in a while before going out to smoke marlboro reds, listen to u2 and skateboard. once, then, on one of these capers, i came across a scientific calculater and a vhs copy of this film, Jordan Fairway got the calculator. going to run which might not be easy. drank a bottle of barefoot wine last night solo. so, sipping mint jeulips on the varanda this weekend are we? g this sure sounds like a good way of getting rid of the element that holds the idea of "killing all american and israeli citizens" as part of their religious beliefs: giving them dental care and fixing their roads. that would rock if it would work. and id be in favor even of trying it, after sending in loraine metz in her blue fatigues to shoot the select few in the head. i think in reality whatever course of action this "operation infinite justice" (sounds like a new cartoon, like Voltron) leads to its going to involve heavy bombing of af and pakistan and killing a lot of their people. so then the gov kills a lot of their people, missing some main members, who in turn retaliate against the US again. then people like britain get involved for some of their own reasons, like wanting to look tough in Time magazine and then, eventually: ww3. either way things go, i think the US will get hit again and i think about maybe chicago, the second largest metro city, and busiest on any normal work day. the building i worked in at sdi, where we went to that office party, has been evaccuated twice since tuesday 11 because of bomb threats. i think most of the bomb threats are unwarrented because if you were going to really do something (like hijack a plane and drive it into a building) you would have no reason to forwarn the victims who most likely are going to die in the process. but still... so, anywayyyyysssss.... i called my old graphics job at the newspaper in missoula and they seem to want me to come back there. so im waiting to get a final word from them today, they said. that would rock to move back there. if we went up there soon, maybe you guys could come for thanksgiving there or newyears or something. go ride snowbowl ten minutes away. or the big mtn in whitefish, best ski mountain in montana, says skiier magazine. he. were driving down to durango/vallacito for our friends wedding this weekend. we're leaving tonight when Amia Diorio gets off work around 6. its eight hours, way down in the sw corner in the san juans, so well probably camp out tonight, maybe have some coldies simply to celebrate the idea that we are not in boulder for a few days, anyway. im getting ready for boulder half marathon on sept 30. i watched the extera triathalon few days ago, see it? brutal. i bet some people shit themselves at the end. yeah, definitely ask anyone who would be available for new years. im going to see if Billy Chaston might make it but i think he'll be in SF. anyway though, we have a lot a room here. Amia Diorios dad and step mom are planing on coming and told Amia Diorio if she made plans for a certain mountain than she (her step mom) would buy us a lift ticket and hotel room. hehe. ive never ridden copper mountain, but it looks pretty good. we cruised by it a couple weekends ago. seems to have a little village for new years festivities, and no one would have to drive anywhere. i guess these would be the tentative plans. no one has bought tickets or booked any rooms yet because we may not even be here and will have to alter the plan to be in montana (that would rock). im putting an ad in the paper to rent this place in a little while. right now i have to go drop a bomb of my own. alright. thats it for now, must go check to see how many jobs havent responded to my resume. hola to you.
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now. i was following that fire in/near glacier before sept 11, then lost track. i was wondering if it was effecting you guys, and figured Lorenzo was most definitely there always. i hope everythings ok with that. and no, i didnt know you bought land in WEST GLACIER?!?! jesus, thats cool. what will you build? where is the land? how much? when i get back there i planned on checking out some property purchases, you see, that one stash of cash wasnot the ONLY stash of cash. hoho. Amia Diorio is dying to get into ceramics. thats pretty much all she talks about when we talk about school. and montana. so naturally i told her as much as i could about you and your setup and where you guys live and what you do and showed her the candle you sent me...shes excited to meet you. so lets see. i should be sending in the final manuscript of the book in a few days. then about a month to get them all back. so if its done first week in november, that will be good timing for the holidays i guess. so ill let you know. take care up there. g well hello again. good story. ok. if you need a web site let me know. i actually just came across a pottery site that was pretty nice www.iconpottery.com if you would like to see. i will be working on three sites for three different businesses in the el paso area. a construction company and two interior design companies. good money and dont have to get dressed in the morning to do it. not that im sitting here typing naked, but just wearing old dirty clothes. ahhhhhhh. well i decided since i have this little job going now i can allow the cost of developing two rolls of film which contains three new paintings. the fourth new one was that wedding present and i FORGOT to shoot it. hopefully they will send the photo soon. its delecate arch, i think youd dig that one. as for the email thing: if you are sure the virus is gone, you have no worries. the font size should be easily formatted in your email program. (sorry if you already know and have tried this) highlight all the text first. you should be able to change the font, size, color, backround color if you want, all that. maybe have to go into Edit -- Preferences to do it? this lease goes till June. ick. i put up two FOR RENT signs out on the busy street right here last night. i figured id give that a week and see if anyone calls. if not, than ill have to pay the SEVENTY dollars it costs to get a little classified ad in boulder. jesus thats sad. so when we DO get out of here i will know about the web master job in NM. if i dont get it, we'll be back up there. i would love to live in NM for a while. montana too, but maybe not just yet. but then again... ill tell Amia Diorio what you said about the ceramics at UM. let me know (or her: sunshine@rhythmmountain.net) if you get any more info on that workshop you mentioned. take care, enjoy the rain. g
whats up? im pretty sick of boulder at this point. i put a sign up FOR RENT out on the main street. maybe i wont have to pay the $70 for an ad in the paper if this works. one girl came by the day after i put it up (saturday) and she brought back her roommate. her roommate doesnt want to live on a busy street so i dont think they're going to take it. damn. i dont even think looking for a job here anymore would be a wise use of time seeing as though im trying to leave. i dont want to dig into the usaa fund, but other than that, ive got about $100 left. so im getting annoyed. what are you living on?. i have a small check coming from naropa comuter lab job and some back money from fed inc tax, some new thing they're refunding $300 to me. mom got $500 or six i think. did you get any of that? you need adobe acRobat reader to open this attachment, its pretty cool. more later going to paint. g that job at Naropa computer lab was only work/study so had to give it up when i dropped my classes. i went for an interview in the psych department, they need someone to rebuild their website and build two other sites they want up for a place to go for people interested in getting some new endowments they had just been given. so these two ladies were all "psyched" (hehe) when i told them i could do it very inexpensively for them, compared to other offers they'd had. they actually said to me "oh, we'll definitely call you for this work". two days later no word. so i emailed one of them, she responded they have no funding for this project and its been put on hold. sad. again. maybe we should join the marines or something. no more waiting for other suckers to push shit around their desks pretending they're "working on it", we could go in as officers and live for free, stay in good shape, travel the world for free, then have jobs upon getting out. i think we'd even get pensions and could buy motorcycles when we retire. i sent in my resume to a webmaster job in taos, nm. they just informed me yesterday that the job wont be available till november or december. and they'll "call me if they want to do an interview" blahblah. then theres this other graphics job at the Sangre de Christo Chronicle that the woman emailed me twice about. so today im going to write her back and see if i can secure this job in some way. she hasnt said anything about interviewing or anything like that, she just sort of explains aspects of the job and leaves it at that. the job sounds cool though. it pays pretty well for the rockies and REALLY well for anywhere near new mexico. that formula presentation was sent to me from steve krupa. hes that big kid i hung out with at bradley all the time. hes a construction engineer, works for CAT in kansas city. i thought it was good. i was thinking of that same thing while i was running the day before i got his email. i didnt know about the temp of kerosene burning being hotter than the melting point of steel, and that there was an hour between impact and crumble. i just figured the impact and size of a full 767, plus the destruction and force of the explosion afterwards caused enough of the steel supports holding the approx. 35 stories above it to collapse. then, of course, roughly the top third of the building--ANY building-- freefalling into the bottom two thirds definitely would cause full collapse. i was thinking, "i bet no building in the world could withstand that weight and force." hehe. then, here comes the physics formulas to prove it. guess ill go look for a job. i sent some photos to moms, go check them out. heres my address: 2138 Tiffany Drive 2990 Glenwood #101 Boulder, CO 80301
Amia Diorios reading Into the Wild right now, i told her she had to. did you check out The Story of B, by Daniel Quinn? going to paint. yo.
g hey there girl, when are you going to be here? halloween? we dont have any plans yet, money is just about nonexistent so its hard to go out. but, boulders pretty lame and dont really WANT to go out much. so we stay here usually. leave on the weekends and go camping. the house is up for rent and we'll be leaving Oregon as soon as someone rents it. either taos new mexico or back to montana. probably montana, but we'll see... looking for graphics job there now. what dates will you be in europe? sounds like a bad ass trip. i got the photos from jazz aspen, thanks a lot, i love seeing photos of BT on stage. those guys rock. i wish we could have come to see. next time. i heard those tix were $50 so i laughed and decided no, i wouldnt be going this year. the book is DONE and at the printers. you can order one from ninearts.org starting end of this month. tell all those cats down there they'll need to order a bunch!! they're great for gifts. hehe. i sent some slides to Portland galleries trying to get a show. whats your moms gallery? let me know whats up, gotta try and find a job. next time i get a good job, im not leaving it for a long long time. hohoho. g winning soccer league is good. its getting pretty cold here last two nights, and as i remember playing many games that left me soaking wet with pneumonia or some such ailment afterwards, i would imagine there, in telluride, the town that gets two hours of direct sunlight a day, that it would be getting somewhat late in the season for soccer to continue... even though you would like it to. maybe you can just wander the alleys, as i did as a boy barefoot in the west side burroughs of chicago, tying up soiled rags with old found twine into a bundle, using this as a makeshift soccerball, looking for other kids to compete with, kicking and bouncing the knotted rags off decaying poverty garage doors, watching the rats scurry in haste. thinking of them as the opposing team when there was no one around to play. dont be hung over so much, you'll feel better. and whats the story with this heart breaker guy? fill me in. and tell him what you think. heres a story for you, although if i sent this one already, let me know. i dont think i did: im not too impressed with boulder as it goes... hello. well, the way it is set up there (UM) is that if i apply like usual and am not accepted as a full time degree seeking student, i can still apply as a non-degree seeking student and take graduate courses (at my leisure, this would be good for working) for graduate credit, i guess the difference would only be that i am not on some structured program schedule. then maybe get accepted into the school full time the next semester with credits already attained. plus, they have graduate assistant teaching jobs- PAYED and discounted tuition and teaching courses. i figured out the cost of living and pay scale in missoula is the same as in chicago, only cut in half almost exactly. interesting. ive always used chicago as a comparison since ive always (ok, usually) been able to find good jobs at very fair wages when i am there. (this made me feel good about it, and not like i would be wasting money, like people must do a lot in boulder.) i explained this to Amia Diorio but she didnt seem to care too much! i think she said something like this: "oh". good to hear you will be able to get the tickets for the ND game. im sure you are looking forward to it. i would imagine its pretty chilly there now. its been about 35 over night here. time to break out the heavy sleeping bag! so, i guess you decided not to go to the reuinion? i had a job interview doing graphics at a print shop company yesterday. havent heard anything from him since. he said "you are at the top of the list..." or something, but so far that hasnt meant too much. i think people just like to say that. more time to paint, i guess... tell grandpa i said hello. have a great weekend, drive safe, love g things are good hombre. nothing like slingin pizza pies to pay the rent, but been painting and writing like mad since getting off the road in august. im in boulder co because of MFA in poetics at Naropa U. here's a little something more.... ps you gunna be around chitown for the holidays? ill be back, we should have drinks scouring the streets. g Download 2 Mb. Share with your friends:
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