part by such a publication -- by us and for us. And, as the first issue
emerged from the presses, a letter came to one of the Editors from a woman
A.A., a Second Lieutenant stationed in an out-of-the-way place. It was a cry
for help:
"' . . . if things keep up the way they have been going I'm going to be in
more trouble than I can handle. ... I've been recommended for promotion, but
... My work is more than satisfying, but off duty I'm a total loss. There
isn't a single soul here that speaks the same language. ... The Army is a
funny place. One is expected to drink, but not to get noisy or pass out or
do any of the things drunks
do. ... I've met a few A.A.s but we've only been in the same place for a
short time. Several of them were in the same boat as I, skating on thin ice,
but I don't know the outcome. Frankly, I'm scared. Has this problem been
discussed at meetings? If so, has anyone offered any constructive
suggestions? M.L."
A copy of The Grapevine went off by return mail. And now comes this:
"Dear Editors: The second copy of The Grapevine just arrived. Does that mean
I'm to get it every month? It's proving no end of a help to me. Thanks so
much for getting it started, anyhow. ... I guess there isn't much one can do
about the sort of spot that I'm in. There isn't anything wrong but
loneliness and boredom, and there's no way out of that, for now. ... Right
after the first copy of the paper arrived I decided to try to take it a
little easier (I'd forgotten all about 'Easy Does It'). ... I was working so
very hard that the hectic on-duty and the static off-duty hours didn't mix.
For some reason it doesn't seem as bad to be bored now. M.L.
P.S. I got that promotion I wrote you about."
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++++Message 1586. . . . . . . . . . . . Which city is this they are referring to in this passage?
From: alev101@aol.com . . . . . . . . . . . . 1/8/2004 12:11:00 PM
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Does anyone know which city they are referring to in this passage?
page 163
We know of an A.A. member who was living in a
large community. He had lived there but a few weeks
when he found that the place probably contained
more alcoholics per square mile than any city in the
country. This was only a few days ago at this writing.
(1939) the authorities were much concerned.
Stumped in NYC
Ava
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++++Message 1587. . . . . . . . . . . . RE: Which city is this they are referring to in this passage?
From: Lash, William (Bill) . . . . . . . . . . . . 1/9/2004 8:42:00 AM
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According to my notes they are talking about Hank P. in Montclair N.J.
-----Original Message-----
From: alev101@aol.com [mailto:alev101@aol.com]
Sent: Thursday, January 08, 2004 5:11 PM
Subject: [AAHistoryLovers] Which city is this they are referring to in this passage?
Does anyone know which city they are referring to in this passage?
page 163
We know of an A.A. member who was living in a
large community. He had lived there but a few weeks
when he found that the place probably contained
more alcoholics per square mile than any city in the
country. This was only a few days ago at this writing.
(1939) the authorities were much concerned.
Stumped in NYC
Ava
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++++Message 1588. . . . . . . . . . . . Grapevine, October ''44, Mail Call for All A.A.s in the Armed Forces
From: NMOlson@aol.com . . . . . . . . . . . . 1/9/2004 3:47:00 AM
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Grapevine, October '44
Mail Call for All A.A.s in the Armed Forces
We are fortunate to have secured the following story for this issue of The
Grapevine from an A.A. who participated in the preparations for D-Day and
the actual invasion. We think his conclusions should he helpful to all
A.A.s:
When we sailed out of New York harbor bound for England I was riding a high
swell of confidence that I would be able to keep on the A.A. beam without
too much trouble. Several factors contributed to that comfortable feeling.
We had just completed a period of training that was pretty tough for a
40-year-old, chair-borne officer, and I
had survived the spells of low spirits that so often accompany physical
exhaustion.
"The Army had twisted, flexed and P.T.'d us into top condition. Among the
officers traveling with me was a close friend who knew about A.A. and was
wholeheartedly in favor of my membership. My foot-locker contained an
elemental A.A. library: 'the' book, Screwtape Letters, Return to Religion,
Lost Weekend, and Christian Behavior, to which I planned to turn for
remindful reading. Finally, I was enroute to a C.O. who previously had been
informed that I was not drinking, thus relieving me of prospects of any
embarrassment, imagined or real, over the 'have-one-on-me' kind of
comradeship with him. So, notwithstanding the thoughts of danger that occur
to anyone moving into a combat zone, I had few misgivings about anything and
particularly not about alcohol even though each hour took me farther from
24th Street and the revitalizing smaller meetings.
"On the arrival in the ETO [European Theater of Operations] I quickly began
to appreciate the difficulties that are likely to confront an A.A. away from
other A.A.s unless the pattern of the new way of
thinking has been carved very deep. England had already been overrun by
Yanks and the British had decided, not without basis, that we liked to
drink, knew how to drink and had the money to pay for our drinks. So, in
their efforts to be hospitable, the Scotch, the Irish, the Welsh and the
English doled out whiskey, gin, rum, and mild bitters from their limited
stock. That was fine for non-alcoholic Yanks, and they went to no greater
excesses than are inevitable for any nationality away from restraints of
home and living under wartime pressure. For quite a time I went along all
right with the aid of the various tools and tricks A.A. had taught. I
re-read my books. Each morning I'd give a few minutes, whether in a flat in
London or a Nissen hut at one of our bases in the country, to the 24-hour
plan and A.A. principles in general. And I'd talk occasionally with my
A.A.-minded friend.
"Then, inspecting old churches and cathedrals and palaces on off-duty hours
in the country began to pall. Presently I realized that the pubs are among
the most interesting places in England. It is true that they offer an open
door to an intimate knowledge of the British, and I was anxious to get to
know the people as well as possible. Even after I began going to the pubs I
managed to sidestep trouble for a long time, a fact which I now make a point
of remembering because it supports a vital lesson that I hope I've learned
too thoroughly to forget, ever.
"D-Day came with an unforgettable air assignment followed soon by a transfer
to France with a succession of hectic experiences on the ground. At least
they were hectic for me and I hit emotional extremes I never had before.
Yet, through it all I stayed on the beam. Although we naturally had to
travel too light for me to he carrying books, I had an A.A. card in a case
with my AGO identification card and I continued that brief contemplation in
the morning. Liquor was available here and there. Where isn't it? Anyway, an
alcoholic will find a bottle even on a Sahara if he puts his mind to it. But
I had no urge.
"Trouble did not develop until I began to get lazy about my way of thinking.
Sometimes I felt in too much of a hurry to re-read my poem or even go
through the premeditated thoughts that had proved so useful, I begun to slip
back into the old pattern. Incredible as it seems, one of the hoariest of
thoughts that bedevil an A.A. seeped into my mind. Perhaps things had been
going too well. Maybe I was cocky. Maybe it was the tension. There always
are plenty of excuses. Presently I was toying with the idea that I had
"progressed" to the point where I could handle a few. Why not try? Mild and
bitters were new drinks. Perhaps they wouldn't have the same effect as
liquor at home. The climate was different, too. From there, of course, it
was an easy step to nibbling. The fact that I did not get drunk the first
few times helped to grease the way right into the hands of Uncle Screwtape.
I even told my friend, who did not know all the wiles of an A.A. on the
loose, that I had found a new system for drinking. Due to restricted stocks,
the 'governor' of many an English pub would lead his customers from whiskey
to gin to rum and finally to bitters during an evening. This switching from
one kind of potion to another enabled me to avoid getting too much of any
one, I said. Amazing, isn't it?
"By blessed luck, no disaster occurred. No one noticed my drinking
particularly. After all, getting mildly drunk was no sin in itself and I
resorted to the old trick of going away by myself to have more after
reaching that point where I knew I was on the edge. After a few hangovers
with the old dreary miseries, I managed to pull up and do
some thinking. A hangover in the comparative peace of your own home is bad
enough. It's infinitely worse when punctuated by the noises and smells and
sights of war. I went back to morning contemplation augmented by mental
pauses during the day wherever I was -- bouncing in a jeep or lying in a
foxhole. At first I didn't put much meaning into what I was saying to
myself. But I was frightened by the picture of what I had sense enough to
know would be the inevitable result if I kept on in the old way. I knew that
in a combat zone they couldn't fool with drunks.
"Back in the A.A. way of thinking, I continued on through more disturbing
experiences in France, even that of the death of some men with whom I was
assigned; I returned to London for a period when the buzz-bombs were at the
worst, with terrifying and
sickening effects at close hand; I resumed going to the pubs for pleasant
comradeship; I sat around while other men were drinking whiskey -- I shared
all of those experiences safely because I was thinking right again.
"Contrasting to that fortunate outcome for me is the fact that months
previous while still in New York, within easy traveling distance of 24th
Street and within telephone reach of several good A.A. friends who were
ready to come to my aid any time -- and
did -- I had a couple of 'slips.'
"All of this adds up in my book as proof that the crux is not in where you
are or what you're doing, but how you're thinking. To be sure, an A.A. is
more in danger the farther he is from other A.A.s. But separation is not
necessarily disastrous, nor proximity a guarantee of safety. T.D.Y."
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++++Message 1589. . . . . . . . . . . . Grapevine, November ''44, Mail Call for All A.A.s in the Armed Forces
From: NMOlson@aol.com . . . . . . . . . . . . 1/10/2004 2:44:00 AM
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Grapevine, November '44
Mail Call for All A.A.s in the Armed Forces
On this page in the July issue, we printed a letter from Sergeant Bob H.,
then in Hawaii. Bob has recently returned from the Islands to attend
Officer's Candidate School in the United States. While he was in New York on
furlough, we asked him to contribute an article on how A.A. had helped him
over the rough spots in an Army
career of approximately two years. Emphasis should be placed, we think, on
the fact that Bob entered the Service after only four months as an A.A. He
had, however, so firm a grasp of the program that he has made an
uninterrupted progress in a completely new field of endeavor.
Bob's Story: "Two years ago, about to be inducted into the Army, I was
secretly scared stiff. I had been in A.A. only four months, and while I had
managed to stay 'dry,' it had been touch-and-go with me on a number of
occasions. When I'd had the jitters I'd always been able to stave off that
fatal first drink by getting in contact with one or more members of the
local group. This, combined with frequent
attendance at the various meetings, had sufficed to keep me in line so far,
but what was I to do now? I knew I would have none of the physical contacts
with A.A. upon which I had been relying; and I knew too that without
something to fall back upon I would be a gone goose.
"The solution to which I turned in desperation was the 11th step in the A.A.
program --'prayer and meditation.' I knew nothing about prayer and very
little about meditation, but I reckoned it was a case of start learning or
else. It was very difficult for me at first (it still isn't easy), but by
attending chapel whenever I could, I finally came to believe that I was
discovering some of those spiritual values which in the past I had never
even known existed. Anyway it worked; and it kept me 'dry.' And certainly it
paid dividends from a more materialistic viewpoint -- I got my promotions
with reasonable regularity, and finally received an appointment to an
Officer's Candidate School, to which I am now on my way. Without A.A. I
might now be in line for some bars, but they certainly wouldn't be shoulder
bars."
A BEGINNER IN THE WACS
We are indebted to the Philadelphia Group for a letter from a comparative
newcomer to A.A. The author of this letter, upon learning of A.A. through
her doctor, wanted help so badly that she moved to Philadelphia from her
home 125 miles distant and got a job so that she might attend meetings
regularly: "The fact that I have not written before is no indication that I
have forgotten you or any of the members of A.A. I think of you all quite
often, remembering the few short weeks I spent in your midst. With that
in mind I purposely chose today to write you. It may be just another day to
you, but it marks an anniversary for me. It was just three months ago to
date that I first entered your clubhouse in Philadelphia. Three months that
I have remained 'dry' and
maintained complete sobriety. How well I recall how far away that
three-month period seemed then. Until that time had expired I could not feel
as if I had accomplished anything, but now at least, my feet are on the
first rung of the ladder. But I've learned my lesson well. My fingers are
still crossed. I know I can never be sure.
"Little did I think then that I would be a member of the Woman's Army Corps
today. I led such a useless, wasteful life -- and now, though I am playing
only a very small part -- I am, at least, a useful citizen. Sometimes I have
to pinch myself to see if I am dreaming. In the beginning I used to envy you
all so much. You seemed so
light-hearted and gay, so thoroughly happy and at peace with the world. I
used to ask myself, 'Will I ever be like that? Will my mind some day be free
from worry and care?' I doubted it then, for I was still confused, my brain
a tumult of conflicting emotions. The future loomed ahead as some hideous
nightmare. I was convinced that
nothing could ever make me enjoy life again. But you were all so kind, so
tolerant, so helpful, so willing to listen to my tale of woe without
censure, criticism or boredom, that gradually the cobwebs began to
disappear, the weight was lifting from my heart, and I was learning to smile
again. And then before I quite knew what had
happened, I suddenly realized that my decision in coming to your group had
not been in vain -- that I had at last found the contentment that I had been
so long in searching for. Nothing that I could ever do or say could
sufficiently show my gratitude. I regret very much that I was unable to do
anything about the 12th Step, but this war won't last forever and the A.A.s
will always be in existence, so perhaps, God willing, some time in the
future I will have the opportunity to put that into effect.
May God bless you all. K."
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++++Message 1590. . . . . . . . . . . . Grapevine, December ''44, Mail Call for All A.A.s in the Armed Forces
From: NMOlson@aol.com . . . . . . . . . . . . 1/11/2004 2:28:00 AM
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Grapevine, December '44
Mail Call for All A.A.s in the Armed Forces
Our mail from A.A.s in the armed forces comes from all corners of the globe
and has been particularly gratifying. The Grapevine sends to all members in
Service its Christmas greetings and the fervent wish that soon they may be
with us again in person as they so obviously are in spirit. If we have
helped one individual A.A., as
the following letter seems to indicate, we feel that our efforts have been
more than justified:
"Dear Friend: And I do think of The Grapevine as a friend -- three cheers
for it and the idea that brought it into being. After fourteen months in the
E.T.O. and not another A.A. in sight, the old beam has not burned too
brightly at times. Now with our own publication serving us as something of a
link with you people back there and a
friendly little get-together on paper, it is my belief that our thought
processes won't be so sluggish and we A.A.s will have a better chance of
taking up where we left off without passing through little Hell again. I
could appreciate with ease the experience of the officer in the October
issue. His arguments and alibis for a bit of
pub crawling might have been lifted in full from recent activities of my
own. As he said, a man can carry on alone and stay 'dry,' but it's not so
easy as when you had your group all going in the same direction. You have to
put more thought into your efforts or the first thing you know you'll be
draped over a bar with only its early closing hour and shortage in spirits
between you and a royal binge -- and that isn't just scuttle butt. So thanks
a million for Grapevine. It will be a lift, and may hit on a date when you
need it most. Maybe someday we can make it a weekly. Hugh P., SF
1/c--British Isles, October 20th"
[A weekly? Sailor, you don't know what you're asking!]
TENTING ON PELELIU ISLAND
"Received your letter a couple of days back and I'll try to give you a
little dope now. Our life is improving somewhat around here; when one stops
to consider that everything has to come in by ship over thousands of miles
of water, these guys certainly do a good job. We even have showers now in
our area but most of the men are
still living without tents. I managed to chisel a tent from a guy on about
D+5 so I have been comparatively well off. The only complaint I have is the
number of gents who cut themselves in as partners. Seven men sleeping and
living in one tent reminds me of a 1 and ½ room apartment with about ten
drunks sleeping overnight! Guess you probably get the picture. Personally, I
would much rather have a shower than a tent. You nearly go crazy being so
dirty for so many days with absolutely no facilities.
However, one manages, and lots of things that happen would be really very
humorous if things were not quite so serious. I feel fine and missed getting
the spell of malaria I rather expected. This is the hottest and wettest of
the Islands, as far us I know. The only saving grace is the wonderful
drainage, due to the coral formation. Under
cruise ship conditions, these Islands would be interesting to visit, but see
that you miss all D Days! They 'ain't' good! Thanks for your letters. It
brings me some closer to the group to hear about it and maybe someday I can
get back to pick up where I stopped. Remember me to everyone.
Sincerely, John N., U.S. Army."
Some weeks later, bound for a new destination, the same correspondent wrote
us further of his adventures, stating: "I have often thought how much better
I am prepared for all these mixups by having a little of the A.A. doctrine.
This is strictly a business where one is able to change some things but, in
the main, it is just a matter of standing whatever is passed out."
SERVICE PAPER INTERESTED IN NATIONAL COMMITTEE
Italy, October 6, 1944
"Dear Marty: I have enclosed a clipping from our Service Paper (Stars &
Stripes, Mediterranean edition). I hope it's the first 'clipping service'
from this part of the world with regard to your newest endeavor in the field
of alcoholism. I know it won't be the last.
"Your new work is something in which I absolutely believe, and of which I
have thought constantly. I intend to spend as much of my time as I can
possibly give, along those same lines, as soon as I am returned to civilian
life. I intend to follow your 'lead' over here by contacting the Editor of
the Stars Si Stripes and offering myself as a bona fide alcoholic, a
three-star example of an ex-rummy, with the ultimate purpose of contacting
alcoholics in this sector who may have read the article and would like to do
something about it. I have some A.A. literature with me, and will be able to
tell them whom to contact for added information, and where to go when they
hit the
States. If, in this way, I could help one man, I would consider the effort a
success.
"I wish to extend the greatest possible good luck to your new educational
program. I know it will succeed and grow, and eventually prove that
alcoholism and alcoholics are what we believe they are, and that therefore
they should be given consideration
in any public social problem work. Sincerely, Harold M."
[A recent letter from Sergeant Hugh B., from England, also mentions that the
Stars & Stripes, European edition, reported the move to organize the
National Committee for Education on Alcoholism.]
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++++Message 1592. . . . . . . . . . . . Grapevine, January 1945, Mail Call for All A.A. s in the Armed Forces
From: NMOlson@aol.com . . . . . . . . . . . . 1/12/2004 4:15:00 AM
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Grapevine, January 1945
Mail Call for All A.A. s in the Armed Forces
The first A.A. Seamen's group ever organized was formed in Manhattan, June,
1944. Six months later, in December, the Seamen took over the first A.A.
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