to govern than to destroy her husband. Also he read
a large packet of Catherine's letters to Potemkin, returned
to her upon his death. These with the Memoirs are
deposited in the Imperial Archives, and will in all proba-
bility never see the light during our time at least. Considerable alarm prevails in consequence of the
yellow fever. Some have died of it in Barceloneta, and
also a few at Alicant : precautions are taking to prevent
its progress. The Corps Diplomatique are gone to the
Escorial to compliment his Catholic Majesty to-morrow,
it being his name-day, San Carlos. Comte Etty alone
keeps aloof ; he will not incur the expense of mules and
apartments. The dull uniformity of the Court life is
insupportable to the little Princess, who already listens
to projects of reform against the time she may possess
power enough to enforce them. En attendant she employs
the livelong day in reading novels. Having heard so,
and that there had been a fuss about them with the
King, I asked the Duque de San Teodoro the truth. He
acknowledged having supplied her with a stock f 140,
advising at the same time ' de ne pas en abuser.' Un-
luckily the King, who pries into every corner, detected
l8o3 ] PRINCESS OF ASTURIAS 113 one in her private apartment, and not approving of
the engraving, ' fit la grimace.' She was conducted
according to custom on her arrival at the Escorial into
the Mausoleum ; the Queens and Princesses of the
Asturias are admitted once only during their lives through
a door which never opens to them again until they are
carried to their last niche for ever. The poor little thing
was so violently affected, that the prior, whose office it
is to admit her into the dismal vault, had much difficulty
in recovering and conveying her above into the church.
At the high altar she knelt and received his benediction.
When the Queen underwent the same ceremony, she
acted more heroically ; on being shown the sarcophagus
destined to contain her perishable remains, she drew
from an etui a pair of scissors, and engraved upon the
porphyry ' Maria Luisa.' The weather is always cold and tempestuous at St.
Lorenzo ' at this season ; there are neither promenades
nor gardens, nor anything to enliven the desolate environs.
The only walks are in the cloisters, and the Psse. skips
about the sacristy and church pour se distraire. The 1
P. of the Peace passes a week alternately at the sitio and
here : one for the voice and support of the Queen, the
other to secure the silence and obedience of his first and
legal wife, the Tudo, whom he both loves and fears. In
spite of the pains we have taken to get at the truth of
the nature of those jarring connections, it is yet as much
of a riddle as when I first heard of them, nor do I believe
anyone has the key of the enigma. Recently the French
thought themselves strong enough to displace him, but
the Queen was roused, forgot his indignities towards
her, and shielded him with her influence. The letter
of which Hermann was the porter was from Bonaparte
to the King 2 containing many positive charges against 1 The Escorial. '- See ante, p. 98.
H4 LADY HOLLAND'S JOURNAL [Nov. the Prince, not only for incapacity, but duplicity and
falsehood ; one of the charges was that, notwithstanding
the close alliance subsisting between the countries, the
Prince had placed large sums of money in the funds
of their common enemy the English. This charge the
Prince mentioned publicly at his levee, affecting to treat
it as preposterous and unfounded. This, in truth, he
could not well do, as from a circumstance it has come
to my knowledge that he has sums to a considerable
amount in our stocks. When we first came to Madrid,
Ld. Hd., in consequence of having been so well received
by him during his last journey in Spain, 1 resolved in
the course of conversation to say something on behalf
of Jovellanos, 2 with whom he was well acquainted ;
but so great a change had a few years operated in his
fortunes, that all access was prohibited by the forms
established, and one audience with the English Minister
present was all the intercourse he was likely to obtain,
unless he had demanded another, which, not being in
any official capacity, would have been intrusive and
troublesome. All hopes of saying a favorable word being thwarted,
another mode was suggested by Mde. M. and C, under
the promise on our part of the strictest secrecy. In
consequence of the war, the great person alluded to had
conceived some apprehensions about lus money, arising
chiefly from his ignorance of the mode of brokerage, &c. ; 1 Lord Holland's first visit to Spain was in 1793. 2 Don Gaspar Melchor de Jovellanos (1744-1811) a native of Gijon
in the Asturias. He was by profession a lawyer, but by taste a play-
wright, poet, and man of letters. Banished in 1790 with his friend
Cabarrus to bis native town, he was made Minister of Justice by Godoy
in 1797, He was again disgraced the following year, and was imprisoned
in 1801 in Majorca for seven years. He took a leading part in the early
stages of the Peninsular War, and it was mainly owing to his efforts with
the Junta at Seville that the Cortes met at Cadiz in 1810. His letters to
Lord Holland in that year and 1809, preserved at Holland House, are
to be published in Spain during iqti, the centenary of his death.
l8o3 ] GODOY AND JOVELLANOS 115 it was therefore suggested that it might allay his fears
if a man of rank and importance were to offer to super-
intend the motions of his brother in London. This,
tho' from various circumstances it was in itself an
unpleasant undertaking, would have been acceded to,
if the liberty of J. were to be the reward. Accordingly
a meeting was to have taken place, arranged by C.
The scheme fell to the ground. As business from Paris
pressed, he went to the sitio, remained there longer
than usual, and the hopes of peace being maintained
diminished his fears. The only reason for recollecting
the circumstance is the assurance of the P. of the P.
in talking so intrepidly on the First Consul's accusation.
His hatred towards Jovellanos is so rancorous, that
little or no hope remains either of his deliverance or
diminution of the rigor of his captivity. He was first
imprisoned in a convent of Carthusians in Mallorca, 1
deridingly recommended to learn from those reverend
fathers his catechism ; there he was permitted to walk
in their garden (always accompanied by a holy brother),
to use their library, and enjoy their society. During the
two years he resided among them, he attached, by the
goodness of his heart and agrement of his conversation,
the whole confraternity to his interest, and the prior
never named him without bestowing praises upon his
character. This, added to his addressing a letter
directly to the King, demanding a trial and reprobating the
cruelty of condemnation previous to being allowed a
hearing, exasperated the P. of the P. so greatly that he
was instantly removed to the fortress in which he now
languishes under the vigilant eye of a severe and brutal
Governor, whose natural sternness is heightened by
repeated orders not to relax to the smallest indulgence.
He occupies a spacious chamber with one window only, 1 Majorca. 12
n6 LADY HOLLAND'S JOURNAL [Nov. at which a sentinel is placed ; at the door also stands
another. His servant is allowed to attend him at stated
hours, but never without a sergeant or corporal. He is
deprived of the use of pen and ink, and has no books
but those given him by the governor. The only air
he enjoys comes through his grated window, and the
only exercise he takes is such as the dimensions of his
room allows. He is 52 years of age. Accustomed to an
active life, this change to one so very sedentary, has
affected his health ; his legs begin to swell, and after
three months' application to be allowed a physician, it
was then granted. The physician's report was that air
and bathing were necessary ; after much delay in the
reply, the request was granted, on condition, however,
that he should only drive to the beach attended by the
governor, the physician, the captain on guard, escorted
by 20 dragoons. This permission Jovellanos rejected,
not thinking the life of an old man worth troubling so
many persons. The only favor he asks is to be allowed
to retire to his native town in the Asturias, from whence
he will engage never to stir without permission. This
application is totally rejected. At present the persons
of the highest consideration in that province have signed
a memorial pledging themselves for his security if the
P. of the P. will allow him to return. To this he is also
inexorable, but his friends have a faint hope. Urquijo and Saavedra x are comparatively well off; 1 Don Francisco de Saavedra. He took office as Minister of
Finance with Jovellanos in November 1797, on the retirement of
Godoy, and when the great writer left the Government a few months
later, he became Prime Minister. This post he retained for a short time
only, and falling into disgrace he was superseded by Urquijo, He lived
in retirement in Andalusia until 1808, when he was made President of the
Junta of Seville, and later Finance Minister to the Supreme Junta. He
was a member of the Regency of 1810, but retired afterwards into
private life. (See p. 303.) Urquijo only held office for two years, and was also disgraced and
thrown into prison for a time.
l8o3 ] EL BONDUCANI 117 the former indeed is even in favor. He obtained his
grace thro' the means of the Dsse. de Alliaga, who is the
favorite of Don Diego Godoy, 1 the Prince's brother.
replied that he pitied his sufferings and esteemed his
worth, but that any influence he might possess, he had
and should exert on behalf of Saavedra, whose lot he
already had ameliorated, as he was allowed to live
with his family at Puerto Santa Maria. 4th. — Yesterday B. Frere and Lambert. From
painful recollections I abhor birthdays, and availed
myself of the fete of San Carlos to celebrate dear Charles's.
He was very happy in presents and doing pretty much
everything he liked ; dined at table, had puppet shows,
and a magic lantern, &c. Reports in the Puerta del Sol
of the yellow fever being already in Madrid : 2 families
lately arrived from Malaga are sent to the lazaretto
established on the road to Aranjuez. 6th, Sunday.— Lambert dined. The people of Madrid
call the Prince of the Peace, El Bonducani, the nickname!
of the Caliph at which all bow, obey, and tremble. On
the day of the besamanos, the ladies were all in the outer
chamber, and were approaching the Queen's apartment,
but in the centre of the room stood the Prince of the P.
playing with the Queen's little dog ; the ladies did not
venture to pass. The Queen impatient and surprised
at the delay begged the King to look, who, seeing the
impediment, said laughing, ' They won't pass the Bon-
ducani ' ! 2 24th Nov. — Ld. Hd. went this morning to the P. of\
the Peace's levee. In a private audience he was told by
him the story that has been in circulation these 10 days, 1 Created Duque de Alrnodovar del Campo. 2 Another nickname was ' El Choricero,' the sausage maker, from
his native province, Estremadura, which is famous for its pigs.
n8 LADY HOLLAND'S JOURNAL [Nov . to the authenticity of which the Prince is always cited,
that of 4000 Frenchmen being sunk by the English off
Boulogne : nothing to this purpose has appeared in
French papers, and the truth of it is stoutly denied by
the Mission here. He finished with great professions of
national esteem, adding the two nations of Spaniards and
English were exactly calculated to act together from
their mutual esteem. His anti-chamber is crowded
with all that is great and distinguished and beautiful in
the kingdom, and tho' often fatigued by their servility,
his manner never offends. Such is the power of beauty,
that those who have favors to solicit, entrust their cause to
the prettiest female of their family, who pleads tete-d-tete
in the cabinet allotted and fitted up for the purpose of
such secret audiences, and according as the charms of
the fair one please, so is he propitious to the suit. It is impossible with truth to ascertain, what are the
ties between him and the Queen. He neglects, has
insulted her, and possessed himself of the King's con-
fidence, independent of her influence ; and yet when-
ever he is hardly pressed by unpopularity or by French
interference, she supports him effectually : for instance
recently in the case of the letter written by Bonaparte
which Hermann delivered, in which his dismissal was
made a specific condition. Whilst the Court are at the
sitios he passes a week alternately there and here. His
riches are unbounded ; all he acquires accumulates, as
the Court supply his expenses. His table is shabby, and
that is his only expense whilst here, for at the sitios he
is furnished from the Royal kitchen. One of the re-
proaches made against him is that of covetousness and
penury to the utmost rigor of the word. 29^ Nov. 1803. — Having been so long confined
without discovering the least amendment, I took a
resolution of going out and conducting myself as if I were
i8o 3 ] MACBETH IN SPANISH 119 well. Women are described as running from one extreme
to the other, but in chronical complaints little is gained
by attending to every symptom ; therefore in modera-
tion variety of scene is serviceable. Went Wednesday,
23rd, for first sortie to see Macbeth in Spanish at
Los Cahos del Peral. It is whimsical that foreigners
invariably object to Shakespeare's extravagances,
and yet in their translations or imitations from him
they out Herod Herod and create absurdities and
superfluous crimes to become sublime. For instance in
this tragedy, Lady Macbeth is represented with a son of
6 years old, who is introduced for no other purpose than
that of enabling her to run upon the stage with bloody
hands, fresh from murdering him in his bed. Mile. St.
Simon I took with me. Afterwards I went to the
Comtesse D'Etty ; it was the first night of her opening her
house, the company was treated with a game of blind
man's buff. Mde. Bourke by dint of extreme court,
very fortunately for the society of foreigners, has brought
ment in his health. Last night a messenger arrived from England ; he
came in an armed cutter from Portsmouth, bearing
probably dispatches of the last importance with regard
to our decision relative to the fate of Spain, its neutrality,
peace, or war. Mile. St. Simon dined twice lately, her
father once ; B. Frere, Lambert, and Rist, almost every
day. To-day nobody. From England no news of great
importance. Ld. Hawkesbury 1 called up to H. of Lds.,
which has left the Doctor without an orator in the H. of
Commons. General Fox appointed Commander of the
Home district. Ld. Stafford's death, by which Ld. Gower
is become the richest subject (with the exception of
Bonaparte's brothers and generals) in Europe. The
invasion has ceased to alarm the English for their own
island ; the preparations and threat are diverted towards
Ireland it is supposed. Paul de la Vauguyon has entered
1 Robert Banks, Lord Hawkesbury and afterwards second Earl of
Liverpool (1770-1828), for many years Prime Minister. He was
Secretary for Foreign Affairs under Addington (' the Doctor '), and
was raised to the peerage in November 1803.
!8o 3 ] PRIVATE THEATRICALS 127 into the Armee d' Angleterre. The Dsse. is at Paris
soliciting the Under Consuls, not having yet obtained
admittance to the First. 14th December. — On the evening of the 12th went to
a private play at the Marques de Penafiel's. The dramatis
personce consisted of the persons most distinguished for
their birth and youthful brilliancy. The choice of the
piece was bad, Gabrielle de Vergy, a wretched tragedy by
Belloy, scarcely ever represented at Paris, not improved
by the Spanish translation. The Conde de Haro per-
formed the part of Fayel ; his wife the Condesa de Haro,
that of Gabrielle ; Marques Pefiafiel, Raoul de Courcy ;
the confidante, Marquesa Santa Cruz ; the confidant of
Raoul, the Marques de Silva, Santa Cruz's brother ; the
husband's confidant, Giron, Penafiel's brother. The
representation went off better than we expected. The
petite piece was very well acted, Le rencontre heureux.
Decorations pretty, dresses costly, jewels in profusion. 13th. — Monsieur Couessens, recommended by Mr.
Chamberlain, dined with us ; he is lately arrived from
Philadelphia at Oporto. During the voyage the vessel
was frequently searched by English cruisers in hopes'
of discovering Jerome Bonaparte. 1 He is a native of
Brittany, and proprietor of large possessions in the Island
of Martinique ; praised much the conduct of the English
whilst they were masters of the colony, and is evidently in
hopes they may recapture it, as under its present masters
the productions must remain shut up unprofitably until
a peace. He has travelled through Mexico, where he
passed 3 months with the Prussian traveller, Baron
1 Napoleon's youngest brother (1784-1860). He took part in the
expedition to St. Domingo, and being summoned to return to France by
his brother, went to the United States, in the hope of thus escaping
capture by the English ships. At Baltimore he married Miss Elizabeth
Patterson, but the union was not recognised by Napoleon, and he
returned to Europe without her in 1805.
i 2 8 LADY HOLLAND'S JOURNAL [Dec. Humboldt, whom he represents as a very enterprising
and diligent observer. At Philadelphia he saw Jerome
Bonaparte, who was amusing himself with the luxury,
state, and profusion of a young Prince ; he describes him
as rather clever, with a decided dislike to the profession
his brother has chosen for him, and only fond of horses,
equipages, &c. Mde. Bonaparte's mother * still remains-
at the Martinique, where she prefers the social intercourse
of her old friends to the ridicule of beginning a Court life
at Paris ; she allows no one to name Bonaparte in her
presence, and her only enquiries are about her daughters'
health. 20th December. — Dined with the Bourkes ; party
consisted of the Freres, Mouravieff, Miners, 2 his secretary
Falck. 3 In evening called upon San Teodoros ; returned
to Mde. Bourke's, where as usual a motley society of
foreigners and Spaniards, gamblers and idlers, assemble.
Mouravieff imparted as a sort of secret the ukase (pro-
clamation) which has been issued in Russia for the levying
of additional troops, far beyond the necessary number
for the peace establishment ; from whence it is inferred
that, as Russia cannot fear being attacked from her
geographical situation, the augmentation is not made to
put her upon the defensive but to interfere actively in
the concerns of Europe. 21st. — Mouravieff, Lambert, and Falck dined.
Received in the morning a small box, brought by Mr.
Hunter from Lisbon, containing Cowper's Life by Hayley,
and Lady M. Worthy Montagu's Letters, published by 1 Rose Claire de Vergers de Sannois, who married Joseph Tascher de
la Pagerie, both descendants of French families settled in the Antilles. 2 The Dutch Minister in Madrid. 3 Antoine Reinhard, Baron Falck (1776-1843), Secretary of the
Dutch Legation at Madrid. He held important positions of State in
Holland both under Louis Bonaparte and William I, and was later sent
as Ambassador to London.
i8o 3 ] LADY MARY MONTAGU 129 permission from the family papers in Ld. Bute's possession.
The whole novelty are a couple of volumes of her corre-
spondence with her husband and daughter. There is in
the first (whilst lovers) on her part a mixture of cold
reasoning and forward importunity that renders his
hesitation far from surprising, but the vanity of possessing
such a wit probably decided him. I devour it with the
same eagerness one feels about a new and interesting novel,
with this difference, that the novel excites curiosity
merely for the story, whereas Lady Mary's wit and
sarcasm form its excellence, and novelty makes one pause
to admire its justness. Her picture, or rather view
of human life, is not flattering but faithful. On Christmas Eve, in conformity to an Italian custom,
the Neapolitan Ambassador gives a buona notte or d
I'cspagnol, la buena noche, consisting of a splendid supper
after midnight and a numerous assembly, which is usually
composed of foreigners, as the Spaniards who keep
houses stay at home to receive their own tertulianos, 1
who always dine with the persons whom they visit on
the preceding evening. We stayed very late, and I was
not sorry on the morrow to doze away the day alone and
by the fireside. On Monday, much amused with the
theatrical representations at the Bourkes : they consisted
of different ftroverbes, acted by Mouravieff, Falck,
Lambert, Rist, Vaudeuil, Balbi, Le Voff. The first was
a mock-heroic tragedy ; 2nd, Le mari absent ; the
third and last, L'etranger, admirably performed by
Mouravieff, who hit off the German accent and prolix
method of arguing facts with the utmost humour and
exactitude. After this there was a very cheerful ball.
~ » On Wednesday morning I went to the Duke of
Infantado's ; he showed me his books, manuscripts,
and pictures. His own apartment is very comfortable ; 1 Circle of friends.
130 LADY HOLLAND'S JOURNAL [Dec. his books and papers scattered about betrayed that his
collection was more for use than ostentation. Ld. Hd.
observed that it forcibly recalled to his mind the poor
Duke's 1 own apartment at Woburn, for here there is also
a medley of the useful and ornamental models of machinery
for manufactures by the side of an inestimable Rubens,
electrical apparatus, minerals, fossils, chemical instru-
ments, fine porcelain, armory, and a thousand curious,
useful, and costly objects huddled together. In addition
to every modern publication, he has some rare and
precious manuscripts. A Romance of the Rose splendidly
illuminated, Les quatre dames d' amour : most all the
romances of chivalry enumerated as composing Don
Quixote's library. A Mexican record, in hieroglyphics,
of the early manner of communicating with them by
signs or symbols. A beautiful portrait by Vandyke.
Quantities of sketches by Rubens, several fine portraits
on horseback by Velasquez, especially one of Christina on
the brink of a river. Prince Emanuel de Salm, brother
of the Duchess of Infantado, and uncle of the Duke, 2
knowing my intimacy with the D. of Devonshire, came
on purpose to meet me and enquire about them. He is
a sensible, agreeable, well-informed old man, much con-
nected in the early part of the Revolution with the
Fayettists, having long been the lover of the Princess
of Bouillon, who was one of the four inseparables, with
Mde. d'Hesnin, Psse. de Poix, Dsse. de Biron. He told
me he had spent several days with Mde. d'Hesnin and
Lally 3 at Mde. de Gouvernais's near Bordeaux, and that
Lally was employed in writing a history of the beginning
of the Revolution which he intended should have the 1 Francis, fifth Duke of Bedford, who died in 1802, ' The Duke's mother was Maria, Princess of Salm-Salm. 3 Trophime Gerard, Marquis de Lally Tollendal (1751-1830), who wrote most of the work entitled, Memoirs concerning Marie Antoinette, published by Joseph Weber in 1804.
i8o 3 ] MR. FRERE 131 merit of impartiality ; but many may be Lally's merits,
but impartiality certainly is not one of the number. Gravina, a It. -general of Marine, was highly rejoiced
at meeting with Ld. Hd., whom he accompanied from
England to Spain about ten years ago. He is an excellent,
frank, warm-hearted man. Friday, 30th. — Went to the Austrian Ambassadress'
— rather dull. Frere sent circular letters to the different
ports to desire the Consuls to put the merchants upon
their guard, as war appeared probable. This intelligence
was only known from the merchants at the ports, who
wrote it back to Madrid ; here it having been kept a
most profound secret. If it was communicated, it was
only to a Mr. Campbell, a mysterious character, a Scotch
American, who has speculated considerably in vales, 1
and has assisted in the loan of large sums. Report
says he has very recently acquired sums to a considerable
amount upon the agiotage of the vales, and some are
amazed at the sagacity of his speculations. It is unlucky
for F.'s reputation that he has not a just discrimination
between what ought to be reserved and what disclosed,
as it renders him liable to various imputations, especially
of the above nature. Both Bourke and others have
smiled, and the former, who has a regard for him, has
lamented his boutonne character, as it has deprived him
of opportunities of serving him ; as no equal will collect
and give information without getting something in return.
The Prince of the Peace said openly that he knew more
about England from others than from the Minister, and
foolishly enough, I think, accounted for it by observing
that F. was not trusted by his own Court or rather
Administration. Wednesday, January 4th, 1804. — Dined at Frere's ;
Gravina, Nuncio, Freire (Ministre de Portugal), General 1 Stocks. K2
132 LADY HOLLAND'S JOURNAL [Ja n. Lancastre, Don Juan de Langara. The latter is the
Spanish admiral who was prisoner in England. 1 Lan-
castre is the descendant of some follower of John of
Gaunt, who came to assist Pedro the Cruel in his wars
against his brother, and the family have been established
in Spain ever since that epoch. January 12th. — Weather has been very English for
many hours in the day during the last month, with this
difference that here we have well-grounded hopes that
the eclipse of the sun by a dense cloud will soon be
removed, whereas chez nous an impervious gloom is the
settled habit of the weather. nth. — Indiscreet language was used in the apartment
of the P. of the Asturias during the King's illness at
the Escorial, which naturally enough has indisposed the
old Court towards the young one. Great apprehensions
are entertained about the future reign : shoals of Italians,
especially of Neapolitans, have arrived, hoping to bask in
the sunshine of their native protectress's bounty. The
Neapolitan Embassy are viewed with dislike and pique
by both Courts ; the Princess is supposed already to
have selected among her countrymen a favorite, who is
no other than Louis Caraffa, the garde-du-corps. This
disposition was manifested in the zealous manner with
which she undertook his promotion, reprimanding sharply
the Dss. of San Teodoro for her preference to another
competitor, whose name had not been so long upon the
list as Caraffa's, but whom the Dss. wished to favor.
In consequence of the observations made upon this
occasion, it has been notified to Caraffa's superior officer,
that he must not upon the pretext of gala days be
allowed so frequently to visit the sitio. 1 The commander of the Spanish fleet defeated by Rodney off Cape
St. Vincent in 1780. He was there wounded and taken prisoner. He
commanded Spanish fleets on two separate occasions off Toulon, and
was Minister of Marine 1 797-1 798.
l8 o 4 ] THE KING AND GODOY 133 N As soon as the King was better, an architect was
dispatched to Badajoz to prepare a fit residence for the
Court next October. This scheme was a project of the
Queen's, who meant thereby to secure herself a palace
for a retreat at some future period. The P. of the Peace
is a native of Estremadura and has frequently declared
his intention of retiring thither after the death of the King.
The difficulties the King, &c, experienced in the journey
to Vellada are supposed to have been increased by the
contrivance of the P. of the P., who wished to pass 30
hours alone with the Royal family. On the second day
of the journey, his Majesty received a note from Cevallos
(Minister for Foreign Affairs), apprising him of the
impracticability of crossing a rapid torrent, humbly
advising that his Majesty should go to Talavera instead
of risking the passage of the river. The King paused,
but said nothing could be decided till ' Manuel ' came,
at the brink of the water. The result of the parley
was that one of Manuel's chasseurs should plunge into
the stream and examine the practicability of the safety
of it, his report was that the water only reached his middle,
that the bottom was sound. The King resolved to pass
with the Queen, &c, and P. of the Peace, escorted by the
chasseurs (which has offended his own gardes-du-corps).
The consequence was that as no attendants crossed at
the same time, the P. made the King's bed, and together