Letters from a new hampshire prison from the wrongfully convicted chad evans

The next day, Sunday the 18th I recall we took the kids to one of the elementary school playgrounds. We stopped by the Stop and Go Deli and picked up subs, chips, and soda and had a picnic with the kids at the playground. We played ball on the swings, slides: played tag, etc: It was a blast. At that time, Kyle was not quite 3 years old. He could already hit a wiffle ball with his brown wiffle ball bat, but he also had a large, fat, red bat that we would take to the park. He could really kill the ball with that bat and there was plenty of room for him to do it at the park. Like many boys I suspect, Kyle got more enthused when he hit the ball hard and far. Of course, as his dad, I was willing to do anything to keep him interested and on the path to being the next Ted Williams.

The third photo that you mention is a summer 2000 photo with Gram Evans at pool party for Kyle.

However, this photo was not in the group you sent. Instead there was a photo dated 7/7/99 of me and

Jason standing around Kyle as he played with his new motorized "Big Foot" truck he got for his birthday. Even without the photo you ask a good question. These kids usually had multiple parties, especially after Tristan and I split up. The party I had for Brent and Kyle at my house was kind of an impromptu party because I really wanted to give the boys their trampoline. This was not the type of thing, I could easily lug to Keene. No matter what holiday it was, Christmas, Easter, birthday's, etc. my mother always had parties at her house. The Easter Bunny and Santa always made "appearances" there to. Often we just had one party, even after Tristan and I split, she would travel to Keene because that is where Kyle wanted his birthday, (pool party). As I have said before, up until a year or so ago, Tristan and I were very close and she remained extremely close with my family. It was always my goal to be friendly with my exes. I don't understand this concept that many people have that once you break up you can no longer be friends. Especially if you have children it becomes crucial. You need to be able to co-parent together. That WAS something that Tristan and I were VERY good at. You included the chronology for the month of July. (By the way, can I get another complete copy with the addition of June 18, when you get a chance.) I noticed a possible small problem/addition/clarification that may need to be made regarding my mother's visits in July. I asked her to fix it and email the change to you. You can decide if it is important to add or not.

The fourth PHOTO (21) you mention is one Date stamped 7/27/97 with me and managers at Hampton Beach. This photo was indeed taken on a Sunday. In the summer months the hardest day to staff the beach was Sunday as we have none of the Campus Crusade for Christ kids that are available to work the other 6

days. I can't remember if I was promoted to Area Supervisor at this time or if I was still the General

Manager of 4 restaurants at that time. In any case, I was the supervisor, Jason was The manager of the

Beach, Jason Shunk, Matt Skidds, and Jeremy Hinton where Jason's assistant managers. It was the

equivalent of "The Dream Team" as far as McDonald's goes. These guys were some of the best. They

really made my job easy that summer. I believe the photo was taken by my parents who came up to walk the beach for the day. Usually the beach empties out pretty quickly after 5 P.M. on Sundays. I believe this may have been the Sunday that we all went down the water slide right behind the restaurant after work that day in our uniforms.

The 5th PHOTO (22) is of us launching or removing the boat from Wilson Pond in Swanzey. This was incorrectly labeled as summer 2000. It was really summer of 2001. There was a problem with the propeller that day that Brandon had just fixed so we were giving it a quick test run. I'm not sure where Amanda was that day. I wasn't exactly trying to flaunt that I was seeing her against my bail condition. She and I were naive to the law then. Even though these people knew she and I were seeing each other on occasion, we were trying to limit their exposure. We certainly didn't want to get any family and friends into trouble because we so desperately wanted and needed to be together.

The 6th PHOTO (23) you mention is me entering my kitchen from hallway at my house. Photo dated June 6, 2000. You mention how happy I look in the photo. There was no occasion. It was Amanda that took

the photograph. I told you, after that first weekend we were pretty much inseparable. She pretty much was always there. I look happy because I was extremely happy. After a rough six months and the dissolution of my marriage, I found someone that made me happy to my core. We thoroughly enjoyed each others company. For the first time in my life, I couldn't wait to get back home from work. A lot of mornings I dreaded leaving Amanda, Kassidy, and Kyle. It was interesting. I shared these photographs with Jeff Gelinas and he said, "Wow, you look really happy in these photos. I see glimpses of this happiness in your eyes and smile now when you are sharing a story about Kyle or are talking about something you and Amanda did. This is so sad." The step ladder leaning against the front door to the house was there because I had recently done some touchup painting in the upper hallway. (right before I met Amanda). By the way, we only used the side entrance to the house, the one connected to the driveway and not the front door.

The 7th PHOTO (28) is of Kyle and I in the pool at my parents' around the time of Malana's birthday party. This is an important photo for several reasons. I think it is a great photo of the relationship Kyle and I shared. I was teaching him how to leg kick when swimming that day. I was intently focused on getting

him to jump into my arms again and trust the process after he swallowed some water. I also believe this may have been our second trip to Keene with Kassidy and Amanda. I'm not sure if it was Amanda or my mother that took this photo. I believe they were both sitting on the pool deck with Kassidy. The photo is date stamped Mon. the 28th of August. This is likely the date we were there. Because the pool is empty, I believe Malana's party was on Sunday the 27th and I took that Monday off. I wrote my own schedule so this is likely. I would have called the restaurants in the morning and had Melissa Allard collect all of the weekly figures. When a photo is date stamped on the front of the photo it is usually the date the photo was taken not developed, (provided that you have the date set correctly). I know processing date of the photos was stamped across the back of photos back then by the machine doing the processing. (sometimes time standing still for the past 10 years technology wise, has its advantages.) I wish we had some of the photos that were taken of Malana's birthday that year. I'm sure there was one of Kassdiy and Malana playing in the little pool. As happens sometimes, some stupid things get saved on important things get misplaced or lost. I can't recall what we got Malana for her birthday that year but I remember giving Amanda money and asking her to pick out stuff for her. Amanda enjoyed this. I believe we got her some clothes, toys, dolls. Etc. Our family has always gone overboard for the kids on birthdays. I think it stems from our mother.

This letter included lots of photos. I received 9 envelopes last night full of photographs asking for

various information. No problem, it will take me a little time that is all. I take it with such a request you plan is to use many of these photographs on the website, possibly some for the book?

Photograph 31 Chad and Amanda, unknown date- This photograph was taken by Vanessa in her

apartment sometime early in 2001. It was one of Amanda's better days during that period. As probably

can be expected in such a tragedy, Amanda would have 3-4 really bad days in a row where she cried a

lot, wouldn't eat, etc. Then, she would have 3-4 good ones.

photograph. I will have to find where Amanda mentioned these slippers in her testimony. This picture

was taken later. Like October. Her interview reference may provide a better clue, perhaps which shopping trip she bought that outfit. I believe those are the slippers that Amanda sent to Jeff's so Kassidy wouldn't get any more pin pricks on his floors (if that is what really caused them). Kassidy is bigger in the photograph, her hair is longer. She is wearing an outfit that Amanda bought shortly before her death. LOOK how HAPPY she was. I'm not sure who took the photo. It was either me or Amanda. We both were prone to snapping photographs when any of the kids would walk in doing something funny or looking particularly cute. From the angle, I would guess that Amanda snapped this one. I tended to get down more level with the kids to get straight-on shots. Not always but often. I looked ahead in the next 9 envelopes of photographs to identify. Some really good photographs of me with Kyle and Malana. God, I wish we had some of the photos that were taken by Amanda of me holding Kassidy or sitting with her playing or cuddling. The fire was tragic. Sometimes I wonder if accidents like that are signs against me and any efforts I make to right this wrong. It seems like every possible thing that could have gone wrong at the worst possible moment, did in EVERY instance of this case.

Photographs 100-104 are of Amanda- These photographs were black and white and I had to think for a

minute where you got them. Then I realized, I sent you a packet of Amanda mail in Georgia and I had one card here that I kept, the rest I sent home to my mom. When my friend photocopied the card the photos were in there and he must have copied them as well. I don't know when, where, or who took the photos of Amanda. Possibly it was her husband, Craig. Amanda mailed them to me inside this great smelling card in the September-October time frame when she wanted to get back together. She knows me well. She knew I would still be upset about how she disappeared in June of 2005 and she KNEW photographs of her would melt me. I don't suspect these photos have any value to the website other than to maybe say, Amanda continued to think of me and eventually pursued relationship with me, knowing in her heart that I didn't kill Kassidy. We are unbelievable when we get together. Our love is always so passionate and real, it's like we have never skipped a beat or missed a minute together. When she came back after two years, she had saved all of my letters, had all of my little "treasures" etc. I have the original photographs and can send them to you if you want. You will have to add it to your list of questions for her as to who took them. I was long in jail at this point. It is hard to describe. Amanda is obviously a strikingly beautiful woman. Photographs don't even begin to do her justice. But it is more than that. The way I feel when I am around her and all the love I have is what gets me. She could have a scar on her face from ear to ear and weigh 300 pounds and she

would still be the most beautiful woman in the world to me. Does this make any sense to you?

I hope all is well for you.

You asked about Mandy Allard contacting you. I sent her a letter and hope she will call you this week.

If she has not by this Friday I have asked Nicole to call her at work.

You said- I have been laboring to clean up the documents. I'll be removing arrest records as they are

not public records. Really, I thought arrest records were public records. Didn't you mention being able

to go to the Kittery Police station and see their reports as part of the Freedom of information Act?

You commented about the 10 pager I prepared for Alan back in 2000/2001 and how you want to use it

because it was so close to the event.. It also makes me look retarded in spots for not reacting. I appreciate you being open to it and discussing later.

Ok, I specifically want to address my letter #73 and your comments here back to me. By the way,

could you scan me a copy of that and snail mail it to me when you have a chance.

l. PLEASE, if you haven't already done it, read the interview that Amanda did with the guy from the Laconia Citizen/ Sunday Fosters, while she was in the Strafford County Jail. That is the guy I think we should contact when we are ready. Even better than Saunders who has a habit of sensationalizing and picking out lines that she wants to out of context. I haven't read the interview that Amanda did in a long time but as I recall, the guy wasn't attacking at all and printed much of what she actually said.

2. Also from your first point you stated, First, I just don't think the law enforcement people would do that, and second if they did, we'd hear about it, and that would not be good publicity for them. I understand your fears, but there is fear and there is paranoia. (Referring to my not wanting the AG's office to know what we are doing because they will try to sabotage) I think there is a saying about looking at the world through Rose colored glasses ... The POLICE HAVE ALREADY PROVEN THEY WILL DO THIS. You yourself have commented how they tried to drive a wedge between me and my friends. In their interviews, they told several people that they shouldn't talk to me unless they are getting information for them. (To Bruce, it was to get me and my family out of his house, and to Jackie, it was that Amanda was not safe with me, etc.) Are you aware the state originally requested for my bail condition that not only I have no contact with Amanda and her family, but that I have none with Travis (my roommate), Bruce, Jeremy, Tristan (the mother of my child), and many others. They tried cutting me off from everyone. Are you aware that AFTER I was already convicted, Jim White met with Mandy Allard after he pulled tapes of me and Amanda talking for 26 hours (In violation of nothing!!) Mandy was on some of those calls. This case was apparently so personal to White that he felt it necessary to see Mandy and tell her that I was a bad person and I definitely killed Kassidy; and that he didn't want to see her wasting her life believing in my innocence, etc. I realize this was nearly 10 years ago, but if they the cops and AG pulled this kind of crap then, what makes you think that they won't do it now, especially when things get rolling and possibly get some momentum. Alan said it best when the AG's decided to seek sentence review. The state prosecutors want their way, and want to win at all cost, no matter what the truth. Morrison, not everyone has integrity, my friend. I realize you want to think the best of people, but there are some people with motives other than to seek truth and justice.

I know that you are seeing first hand that I made a lot of bad decisions and showed bad judgment, but you have to trust at least in this case that I somewhat know what I am talking about. It is like this thing with

Amanda where I keep harping about how to contact her and having my mom involved. I am not doing

this to be a pain in your ass. I just know her better than you. I want her to be an asset for the long term just

like you do.
April 6, 2010 (83)

Hello. We spoke briefly on the phone this afternoon. That was nice. You had a good suggestion of your own on my mother approaching Amanda. "Would you like to speak to Morrison now or wait until a little later when you see things progress a little?" It's almost like not really giving an option of IF, the only option is WHEN. I know you don't mean it forcefully it may just be that she wants to see something we've done. I wouldn't worry too much about Amanda being upset that she is the last person we contacted. She won't even think like that. I think back to your original statement on the subject, if I am innocent, she likely is, too. I know that and the fact that we plan to try to gain media attention (coming from you when you speak with her, which is something she has ALWAYS advocated for) may be of interest to Amanda. You started to mention some of the things that you would like to ask her/talk to her about while on the phone. Hopefully by now you have read my letter where I suggest some ideas on questions for her and keeping some of my comments handy to jog her memory of certain events.

I think it was a FANTASTIC idea to get an affidavit from her and also have her go through her statements, perhaps your recaps on her statements to put notes in them of what is true, what is false, what she meant by certain things she said, what she would have liked to have said to the police if they were not force feeding her., etc. This would be a lot of work for her. Hopefully she would be willing to do it. Amanda is the type of person that is much more likely to do something if she feels or sees that it may have a positive impact. If she gets some real, HOPE she is likely to be an asset who will stick with it for a while. You are going to have to give her the hope my friend. Perhaps a good example of what we are looking for her to do with her statements is to show her the comments I have made with the secret tape recording that Jeff did of the conversation with her. Or possibly give her a glimpse of my interview complete with the corrections, if I get it back to you in time.

You asked about the large child's bedroom over the living room. This was Kyle's room. Tristan and I had a roommate, Steve Skidds, that lived with us for a while. That was his bedroom. At that time, Kyle had his crib in my and Tristan's room. Brent had the smaller bedroom right over my office since the day he moved in to the house. When Steve moved out, we just moved Kyle into his room because it was available and Brent's was already all set up. Brent's old room was becoming Kassidy's.

You asked about Kassidy sleeping with Amanda and me and indicated how this counteracts the view that I wanted to get rid of Kassidy. Boy, this is probably another good question to ask Amanda. I know we probably shouldn't have let her sleep with us in society's eyes because of the SIDS thing, but man, it was the best. Do you know how awesome it is to have this cute little blonde snuggle up to you or to wake up with

one arm wrapped around "Tinky Winky" and the other wrapped around your neck? Most nights she started out in her bed, but halfway through the night she would wind up with us. Amanda and I usually slept with the door open and Kassidy would sometimes wander in and stand at the bottom of the bed. I would sometimes feel her at our feet early on. She was too small to crawl in, so I would lift onto the bed. Other times she would have a bad dream or something and start crying. One of us would go to her room and pick her up, and bring her in, usually me. I have always been a very light sleeper.

I would guess that it was once or twice a week on average that she slept part of the night with us. Amanda and I loved it. I think we both thought of it as a guilty pleasure. If you were looking down from the ceiling, Amanda would be on the left closest to the bathroom and I slept on the right, closest to the front of the house. I loved to sleep on the right so that I could wrap my left arm around Amanda's back if she wasn't sleeping in the crook of my right arm with her head on my chest. Man do I miss this. When Kassidy came in she usually would slip right in between us, in the middle of the bed. Occasionally she would sleep on Amanda's or my side wrapped in our arms (more often Amanda's than me). It was great to cuddle with her this way but we would transfer her to the middle of the bed after she fell asleep. Our bed was pretty high,

and we were worried about her rolling out of it. Once she was with us, she usually stayed until the morning, similar to the way Jeremy described seeing her in our bed the morning of the golf outing.

Some of the best nights Amanda and I had, and I am confident Amanda would agree, were when both Kyle and Kassidy ended up in our bed. They were so cuddly then. It's hard to describe but to me it was what life was all about. I'd get to make love to this beautiful woman, and several hours later we had these two tired little babies sleeping between us; looking for protection for whatever was chasing them in their dreams. It's too bad we weren't so good at protecting one of them in real life. Thinking back, I really loved watching Amanda and Kassidy sleep together. Amanda had long hair and Kassidy was always somehow wrapped up in it. Some of my best memories of Kassidy are mornings where it was just she and I awake, she'd open her little blue eyes as happy as could be, and breathe her pungent breathe in my face. I'd say, "You want to go get some breakfast?" and she would have this huge smile on her face and in her eyes and say "yaaa" in a whisper.